My One and Only

2007-05-11T02:42:00.005-07:00

Hello all. It's my 222nd post so I've decided to change my url today. So here it is:

www.wontstandlosingyou.blogspot.com

Bye bye, old blog.

2007-05-11T02:42:00.004-07:00

Ican'tbreathe.

2007-05-11T02:42:00.003-07:00

OH MY GOD. THE FUNNIEST THING ON EARTH HAPPENED TODAY. I ran too fast when playing Dog and Bone and I couldn't stop. So I went on my knees and started to crawl to break. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. LAUGH OUT LOUD LOUD LOUD. Just kill me now.

Common test was..well, HAHA. Didn't really study THAT much. Maths was okay. Physics was a killer. Oh man. Talking about it makes me wanna kill TPH. Won't come out, won't come out. In the end what happen leh. It came out and worth 4 marks somemore. EVERYONE LET'S CLAP OUR HANDS AND SHOUT HOORAY.

Aww mannnn!!! Physics is a gone case for me eh. Walao. Sec 1 camp is tomorrow and I'll be so lonely at home! :((( Anybody wanna come and have some fun with me? Heh. :D

HEY! BLOGGER'S ALRIGHT NOW!! WOOHOO!! :D

2007-05-11T02:42:00.002-07:00

OH DAMN IT. BLOGGER STILL HAVEN'T RECOVERRRRR!!! >:( It is making my life seem so dull. All black and white. MY LIFE IS FILLED WITH ALOT OF COLOURS ONE OKAY.

AND NG WAN LENG YOU IDIOT. DO YOU KNOW THAT MY SHIN IS SWOLLEN BECAUSE YOU PUSHED ME INTO THE POOL AND I HIT THE STEPS. NOW GOT ONE BIG BIG BLUE BLACK! ASSHOLE. >:(

Okay. I planned to study Maths for the whole of today and guess what. I came home at 3 and went for a swim till 3.30 and used the computer till 6 and did my work for half and hour and then eat my dinner and here I am again, infront of the computer. Say Sayonara to my marks.

2007-05-11T02:42:00.000-07:00

There's something wrong with blogger. I can't change the font size or the colour or the position of the text. -_____- Shit you. My blog is already plain enough and now you want to make it even worse. WHAT YOU WANT FROM ME HUH HUH HUH. Walao.

Today is a very, very memoriable day for me cause Miss Ng Wan Leng pushed me into the pool SIX TIMES. And she BROKE MY SLIPPER. IDIOTTTTTTTTTT. MY FAVOURITE SLIPPER LEHHHHH. WALAOOO. Humph. You're gonna get it someday. I swear. >:(

I got all wet and was dripping all over. It was already bad enough and she made it even worse by throwing my slipper all the way to the other end of the pool. You rock man.

Met Xue Wen and her sister, Xue Xin, in Compass Point. Oh man, Xue Xin is oh so cute! :D She chased Dominica Tan all over the place and they two look like mad people trying to run away from each other. HAHAHAHA. Poor Xue Wen fell down from the escalator while trying to run away from Dominica. I think it is so funny. Imagine her running up the escalator because some mad woman was chasing her behind and suddenly, "PIANG!" (Fine. I don't know how to describe the sound effect.) She missed a step and hit her toes on the end of the escalator. HAHAHAHAHA. I know it's mean but I can't help it. IT IS VERY FUNNY.

Bought Mum's gift and headed home. I'm supposed to type out the Science notes but here I am blogging. Praise the Lord. There is still Maths and Science test on Monday and I am already in a post-exam mood. HOWWWWWW.

2007-05-10T01:52:00.001-07:00

Okay. As usual, alot of things happened recently. Literature test is tomorrow and I still haven't got the sense of urgency yet. Yes. Just kill me now.

I went crazy this afternoon during art. Talking to Zhiying in a ghostly way, playing with penknives. Cause at that moment, I really missed you terribly. So much so that I almost brokedown at that point of time. You are at fault for making me like this.

You are out there enjoying yourself with her, while here I am waiting for your stupid reply like a fool. Do you know how much it hurts? Well, I bet you don't, cause that's your job.

I was looking forward to seeing you. But when I do, all I get is your silence. I tried being friendly. I tried. But all I got back was your stare, cold and empty. I hate it. Cause in those eyes, I see her.

I tried acting like it didn't affect me a single bit. I tried being positive about it. But when I do, you don't.

I miss your voice. I miss how cheerful you were. I miss how we talked on the phone for hours and not get bored cause we've got so much to talk about. I miss how we used to make fun of each other. I miss the times when you were there when I needed someone to talk to. I miss those funny conversations. I miss those times when we were really, really, good friends. I miss how you always confide in me. I miss how you always ask me for advice. I miss how you showered me with your love but I didn't appreciate. I miss how you asked me to take care when I was sick. And most of all, I miss you.

Can I have all of them back, please? I don't need you to be there always. I don't need you to love me like you used to. I don't need you to take care of me. And I don't need you to spend hours talking to me on the phone. All I'm asking for is for us to be good friends like how we used to be. Is that so hard to give?

I sat there till the darkness fell, and wished you were here. But then again, I wasn't so sure.

2007-05-10T01:52:00.000-07:00

I feel like I need to understand more than I do.

Sometimes, you make me wanna melt.
Sometimes, you make me wanna hit you in the face.
Sometimes, you make me go all "Aww.."
Sometimes, you make me feel like a fool.

I'm really at loss of what to say, what to do.
Cause all I can think of right now is You.
When I saw how happy you were with her,
I went all sad and sour.

I left you all alone, hanging there by yourself before. And now, I want you back. I know I'm being selfish. But I can't help it, can I? Because I can't control the way I feel, though I really wish I could.

Some say time will heal. Some say time will kill. I chose the first option...but I'm hurting even more than I did. Then I tried the second option...but things just got worse. I can only lose you bit by bit, a little at a time. So I've tried ways and means to try and learn to let go.

And finally, I've come to a conclusion.

I need to learn how to love again.

2007-05-02T02:48:00.001-07:00

Damn it. Blogger destoyed by blog. >:( Now my blogskin becomes like this. Just plain Orange and White. Oh, great.

Thanks Clique for making me feel so much better today. Love you guys. :) Can't wait for the Clique outing! :D

Chinese results tomorrow. KILL ME NOW.

The thought, the thought, the thought. LOL. Joyce ah Joyce. HAHAHAHHAHA.

Paper cut. KILL ME FAST.

Common tests coming soon. KILL ME ON THE SPOT.

-Dead-

2007-04-30T22:01:00.000-07:00

It's Labour Day today and I'm stuck at home studying. While Zhiying is out, watching her favourite superhero, Spiderman, swinging here and there.

I feel like staring at the sky and just you know, stare. Thinking about what just happened, I feel like shooting myself with 10 bullets. I really don't understand what made me do it. Oh man. Blame it on Stupidity.

Now I hate you. I really do.
I hate you for allowing me to fall for you.
I hate you for letting me love you.
I hate you for doing what you did.
I hate you for not answering me.
I hate you for liking her without me knowing.
I hate you for being so selfish.
I hate you for everything you said to me cause it was all a lie.
I hate you for being you.

I'm learning to be stronger now. Not physically but emotionally. Yeah. It's doing me good.
After so much, I realised that allowing yourself to cry and moan over something for a period of like, 3 days, depending on how serious is it, of course, is a very good way to help you overcome things. It's like handing up an assignment on the dateline.

There'll definitely be a scar somewhere down there, but at least you're shoving it aside and not letting it show. Putting up a brave front is also good somehow. Acting like it doesn't affect you also helps alot.

So to my clique, when I'm all high and smiley suddenly, don't ask me why. Otherwise I can just break down and cry anytime, anywhere. You wouldn't want that to happen, don't you. And don't mention that ass's name too. Or I'll be angry. Very, very angry. So much so that I may bite.

Oh, I'll be changing my url soon too. Okay. Random.

Beware Of Rachel.

2007-04-30T01:54:00.000-07:00

It’s been long since I last updated. Many things, both interesting and uninteresting, have happened along the way. And many things have changed too.

Things like,

- Me getting choked on an APPLE and my face went all red and my tears started flowing out

- How a disaster my Chinese test was

- How bad my attitude was during the past one to two weeks.

-My clique used to have 6 but now left with 5.

-Training is now boring and meaningless without our seniors.

-I’m sick and tired of all the teachers who think they are so great and loves to give inspirational talks. Trust me, it’ll only make things even worse for themselves if ANY of them talk to me about my attitude towards anything. I hate it. I really do. So, watch out.

-I just met a friend whom I haven’t seen since I was Primary 6. And I just realised how much I missed her and how much I regretted doing what I did.

-I just realised how much I hate doing bao zhang du hou gan and going for Chinese lessons. I wanna switch class for Chinese.

-I realised I still have feelings for You. I’m at loss of what to do. (Hey, it rhymes!)

-Science can kill me.

-Principle was being SO irritating today by asking us to sing the school song 6 times. National anthem nobody sing. No 6 times. School song nobody sing, got 6 times. What trash.

Okay. There are many more to name but if I do, I think blogger will hang. So I shall save someone’s life and not do anything harmful to you and I. (Oh, it rhymes again!) I think I’ll do great in poetry. Lol. I think I should leave blogger alone now or I’ll get all emo and my blogskin will turn all black and grey.

2007-04-11T23:55:00.000-07:00

Today's Sport's Day was BLAST! :D DODSWORTH GO GO GO!!! CHAMPION FOR SECONDARY SCHOOL!!! WOOHOO!! ;D
I cheered till my throat almost died. The runners all rocked the stadium today. Though there were some ugly scenes (so many people's shoes dropped on the way) but seeing their faces while running, it's actually quite touching. Lol. Okay. I don't know how to describe.

I think the Mass Run was stupid and the Mass Cheer competition was a complete failure. Lol. Most of the people didn't know how to do it and so they kept quiet. Even so, we were still third. Hahaha. For the Field Bonanza thing, I didn't know how they do it but we got TWENTY FOUR points only. Hahahaha. The rest of the houses got 60 and above. If we did better in the cheer and Mass Run, maybe we could overall champion. Anyhow, it's all over. But it was really enjoyable. :)

Can't wait for next year's Sports Day!!! :D

I'm lying to myself?

Yeah, maybe she's right.

2007-04-10T04:20:00.000-07:00

Time passes so fast. It's gonna be half the year soon. Which means it's gonna be Sec 4 and 5 farewell soon. Oh mannnnn. I don't wannnnnnnnnnnttttttttttttt. :(

Though both Divisions didn't get anything for both Badminton and Table-Tennis, I must say we all ended our game well. At least we tried. But it's funny how we always get Top 6 or 8 whenever there's SYF. Can anyboday tell me why? Luckily it's only once every 2 years. Otherwise we all die. Yes. Luckily.

This week there will be no trainings which means whole week can go home earlyyyyyy!!! WOOHOO!!! :D

I'll be shifting soon and my house is like now made and filled with carton boxes everywhere. It feels so empty and I don't like this feeling. >:(

Rain, rain go away, come again another day. I don't like rainy days. It makes me all emo and sad and I feel like killing myself. Okay. Maybe not that but, yeah. Sunny days with lots and LOADS of sunshine is GREAT! :D I love to absorb UV rays. Lol. Another way to say tanning! :) Though I don't seem to get tan even though I spend so long under Mr.Sunshine.

I just know many things which I think it's better that I not know but somehow, my ears can't resist whenever people tell me stuff. Some makes me sad, some makes me high all over while some are just, well, nonsensical.

Soprts Day is on Thursday. ALL THE WAY COMPETITORS!!! :D Even though you don't win anything, don't be dissapointed cause it's better than the rest of us sitting there doing nothing and sweat non stop. Yeah, you sweat too, but at least you're DOING something. So BEST OF LUCK TO YOU GUYS!! :D

I've sort it out. I'm over and done with.

Well, maybe that's what I tell myself to believe.

2007-03-30T19:08:00.000-07:00

I've thought about giving up. But what would I be...without You? At times, I feel that You don't even know I'm here. Cause when You do, it is always for that one special moment. Maybe I should wait. Maybe I should wait till You you've forgotten about her. I know it'll be hard, for both you and me. But let me give it a try, so let's wait and see.

Well, this whole week was one very, very, very emotional week. Oh man. Yeah, we knew we would lose to RGS from the very beggining. But who knows it'll be that bad? Mr Kim was expecting my pair to win a point for the team and we did made a godd start. But for the following sets, we just failed. And for the final set, to determine wether we could carry on playing and maybe win that one point, that girl hit a cheapskate ball. And mind you, the score was 9-10. So yes, it was over just like that. In that one second. Even though it was quite a good game, I just broke down cause at that moment, everything suddenly seemed destroyed. My hopes, my goals and myself. I can't express it in words now but all I can say is I was disappointed. Very, very disappointed.

Next came our seniors. They've won them since like forever. And it turned out that the results were unexpected but I can tell they really, did want to win very badly. But surprisingly, they trashed us. Some cried, some looked like it was the end of the world.

The next match is on Monday and if we lose, we're out. And it would be difficult to win. All we need now is team spirit. Guys, we are gonna win this and we WILL.

We are gonna do it.

2007-03-23T19:39:00.000-07:00

This week is the tiredest week I've ever had. On monday, we had training. Tuesday, competition. Wednesday, tution. Thursday, competition. Yesterday, morning run then 2.4 then training. My goodness. I could have just died on the spot, let me tell you.

The match on Thursday was a good one but also bad in a way cause I played against my tuition friend and I made her cry after we trashed her. Lol. I was hesitating wether to go comfort her but after a verrrrrrryyyyyy long time, I didn't cause she already stopped crying. We won St.Joseph Convent 5-0 and seniors won Presbytarian 4-1. Candice did a really good job. She had fever and still made the effort to come to school, specially for the match. Though she isn't in my division, I still think she rocked :) Way to go! :D

A really wierd teacher keeeeeeeeeeppppsss on talking to me about nonsensical things. There was once during the fire drill when she asked me not to look down from the railings and hurry come down stairs to assemble -__- Then another time, she asked me to pass some stupid disc to some man in my school to ask him to choose a song to sing -__- But I told her I gotta go so I escaped that time. The next was yesterday.

"Rachel, come."

"Yeah?"

"I see that you are doing as well as expected ah."

"Huh?"

"You see your grades. You have a PSLE aggregate of *** so you should be doing much better than this. I want to know the reason why are your marks like this. Why?"

I haven't had the chance to answer and there she goes again.

"I want you to study very hard and get an A2 for ALL your subjects and A2 for your overall."

"What??"

"Yes. I will come and find you again in Week 8."

And she doesn't even teach me ANYTHING. NOTHING at all. She's been all wierd and crazy afer her marriage. I think I'll try to avoid her. A2 for all subjects. It's madness man.

I'm planning to go to the megacamp. But I need more info!! Whoever knows more about it, care to tell me? Cause I need it to persuade my dad :)

Get ready for the battle against Nanyang. GO PL!!! :D

2007-03-21T00:31:00.000-07:00

The first few days of school was alright. The days seem muuuuuuuuuuuuuuch longer than last term. Nationals started yesterday, and it was a good start! :) C Div' won Gan Eng Seng 5-0 and B Div' won New Town 5-0.

And for the first time in my life, I wanted to skip chapel. But Zhioink said she didn't want. So we decided to skip when we felt like it. Lol. But we were lucky we didn't skip today cause form teacher was there. So, boo.

Life lesson was the worst of all. We had to listen to that teacher talk about things that don't make sense for one and a half period. Yes. Champion.

Match against Nanyang tomorrow and pray that we at least lose with a score of 2-3.

All the best.

I'll be here. Right here.

2007-03-16T00:35:00.000-07:00

Boo, it's the last day of the hols and Yay, it's the last day of the hols. Lol. This week had been a really, really, really busy and tiring week for me. The only day I can officially rest is today so I gave up the trip to sentosa with my cousin and her friends.

Had team outing yesterday. We wanted to get into the arcade so badly that everyone went to Hang Ten and Baleno to buy those 3 for $4 shirt so we can change out of our table-tennis shirts to those. Lol. Women in Blacks. Had a ball of time in there and didn't regret being ugly. Lol.

The ending of Hana Kimi is very stupid. I was so excited to know what will happen in the end and the results of my exitedness is just the stupid ending which doesn't even make any sense at all. Waste my time.

Okay. Someone is gonna be reallllllllllllyyyyyyyy happy till she cries when school reopens. :D I shall tell you guys who when the day comes! Shi mu yi dai!!!! ;D

2007-03-09T00:23:00.000-08:00

It's the last day of Term 1. Time really flies. Must be sit bullet-train. Even though it's only a week, I guess I will still miss my Clique.

I will miss Nads, you an your stupid hair :)

I will miss Oyce, you and your expressionless big big face :)

I will miss Zy, you and your stupid actions :)

Iwill miss Pris, you and your loud voice :)

I will miss Sharmos, you and your dumbness :)

And my Term 2's time table is like SHITASS let me tell you first. Tuesday, 7 periods ALL THE WAY without ANY breaks. Just kill me now. Everyday ONE break only. Monday, 4 periods break, another 4 periods then school end. Friday, after morning run is PE. The rest of the days is worst. I shall not mention. Makes me feel faint.

Nationals is only 2 weeks away. We can do it. Oh yes, we can! :D

My 2.4km run today was good :) Did better than expected. Yes, that's the way.

Take a break, take a kit-kat! LOL. This phrase suddenly came to my mind :D

Get ready for a rough ride after the one-week break.

Yes, I do miss You.

2007-03-06T23:36:00.000-08:00

My results are like shit. Yes, I admit I didn't spend ALOT of time like other people do for this term's common tests but I spent at least a day on each subject and what I get are shitty results like this. Give me a break.

I don't know why, but somehow, I just cried after seeing my Chem results cause I didn't expect myself to do THAT badly. I got 53, while everyone laugh and smile after seeing their results. The last question was worth 2 marks and the teacher marked it wrong, why? Cause she saw my capital M as a small letter M. You tell me.

I spent a DAY on it. There's not much to study either. After doing the paper, I was confident I could get at least a B3. Now, seeing what shit results I've got, I feel that no matter HOW much I study, NOTHING goes into my head. Yeah sure, at most 2 facts for each topic. What shit.

It's ridiculous when I see people crying when they get 80. I wish I could do that as well. But I guess it would be tears of joy instead. 2 B4s, 1 B3 and 3 C5. Is that all I'm capable of? My highest
mark of all is 65. 65 while others get 95.

You know what? I hate people who are competitive and wants to be the highest cause there are people, like me, who can't even manage a high B3, or even have failures, in her first Term.

Just wish me all the best, cause it's the streaming year.

2007-03-01T04:21:00.000-08:00

Guess what. He didn't scold/say/do anything to me just now during training. I guess he forgot all about it :D

Had a very, VERY, VERY, VERY badddddddd gastric in the morning out of a sudden. I couldn't even stand please. Everyone persuaded me to eat something but I didn't cause I was on the verge of vomitting. So in the end, the very kind Zhiying, Nadine and Priscilla helped me carry my bag and by shoebag alllllllll the way up to the 4th floor! :D (You all are lucky that I didn't bring any books at all today man.) Thanks alot guys :)

As a result, I was starving when we had our second break. Guess what? I ate 25 wantons in total. Yes, call me Wanton Hero. Zhiying ate 18 and Sharmos and Nadine ate 6 each. Lol. We are the Wonton Clique!!! :D

Anyway, tomorrow's the prize presentation ceromony and pray, pray, PRAYYYY that I don't trip and fall flat on the ground with my arms spread out wide when walking up the stairs of the stage.

2007-02-28T04:58:00.000-08:00

Yesterday's badminton match was as gan chiong as ever and they emerged as champions.

Today's tuition was horrible cause I suddenly forgot my fractions. But today was also good, in a bad way, cause I got angry with the prefects and I scolded some of them. Please. They were being ridiculous by asking me to carry so many chairs at one shot instead of dragging them. And I shouted back, You think very light is it. You come carry lah. I got caught for my socks in the morning but I didn't go to where I'm supposed to go. I purposely pulled my socks skyhigh after that. And showed all the prefects.

I actually felt contended. Seriously, I think I'm getting more and more rebellious.

Tomorrow will be the best day of my life. Cause I'll be getting hell from him. Everybody, please clap.

2007-02-23T04:59:00.000-08:00

Okay. Blogger finally loaded. It took forever. Back to serious stuff now. Tournament. Yes.

Wednesday
Oh man, oh man, oh man. I was feeling giddy for the VERY first time of my whole entire life. I'm serious. I was down with flu and cough and my partner was down with the same illness as well. And we were supposed to play against Dunman High Sec. During the match, both of us were not focusing cause we kept sniffing. So guess what our beloved one said, "You are not using your head." You tell me, sick how to concentrate? Why don't you give it a try? I wouldn't mind.

So we obviously lost that match. He scolded us. Said what we were not focusing, not concentrating, never use head, mind went blank, tadadadada. Yes, his usual things. Then he asked us why we were not focusing. So I answered we were sick. And guess what he said? "All these are ALL excuses." My goodness. He himself said that if you are sick, you can't play. And now he tell us all these are just excuses? What shit. Please, does he have a problem with people being sick? It's not our fault, you know. And now, you're blaming us for it? I think there's something wrong with You. Not Us.
He also said he wanted to drag us out half-way when we were playing the match. Drag for all you want. I don't really care. We've done our part and that's it. You don't like it, then that's too bad.

I thought we were free from his rubbish after we were dismissed but hell no, we were wrong. Bus-stop. (I'll never, never forgive him for this, let me tell you.) He SCOLDED us at the BUS-STOP. And he repeated whatever he had said just now, AGAIN. Only thing it's louder. Thanks alot. And in case he didn't know, a bus-stop is a PUBLIC area. And a public area has PEOPLE EVERYWHERE.

He asked me a question and I didn't answer so he asked again, this time louder. "Why are you not answering me?!" I looked at him, and rolled my eyes. Yes. I did that. Don't ask me why cause I really, really, hated him at that moment. So for this, he was angry at me.

Today
My eyebags were really heavy today. History was fine, except I was sweating like crazy cause I didn't get any wind from the fan AT ALL. Done the test, next major test; match against Anglican High. I knew it from yesterday that he wouldn't put me down to play because of what happened on Wednesday. So the line-up today for C Div' was well, changed.

B Div's match was an absolute killer. We played till rubber set and everyone was cheering SO loudly. Yes, PL spirit. :) And after much pulling of shirts and squeezing of hands, B Div' WON! 1st place! :D They've done really well. Next, C Div'. Lost the first 3 and won the last 2. The last 2 were good. The first 3 was well, sort of unexpected. So we lost. 2nd place. Again.

Team Dinner was next. It was fun, till Mr Kim started talking. He was talking and yes, I admit it, I was smiling and I said 4 words, "Look at Nadine's fries." And I got picked on. Shit him. So he started saying, "I'm not going to mention who it is cause today is a good day. I will say it next time. It's a habit, once people talk, you also talk. You are going to get HELL from me next training."

Hell for me? Yeah, sure. I'll see what you can do. Scold me like shit, tell about me to the principle which you always do over minor things, make me run 10 rounds round the school, make me do whatever things you want me to do. I'll do it willingly. Without a single tear. Like I give a damn about it, man. Why waste my tears. I'd rather waste it on my pet fish. You've had enough? Yeah, me too. So go ahead and do whatever you want.

It's been a bad bad week for me besides CNY. CNY was the ultimate cause I lost $25. And I collected lesser Ang Pows this year!! Why huh, why huh??

Okay. Common Tests are up till Monday and I will be going to support the Badminton Girls after that. I can't wait till next training to see what I will be asked to do.

Maybe... I was wrong, somehow or rather.
Maybe... it is just meant to be like that and nothing more.
Maybe... we will be best friends next time.
Maybe... we will remain like that.
Maybe... we will be together.
Maybe... I love you.

2007-02-17T00:42:00.000-08:00

I am down with bad flu. Yes. Very good. Of all times must be now. I keep sneezing like nobody's business and my mucus keeps flowing like free. My head is so heavy and my eyelids have like 3kg of weight hung onto it. Just pray that this won't drag on till Wednesday cause I have a match on that day. Please bless me, Oh Lord. Otherwise I can't enjoy the collection of my angpows. Oh and best of all, I can't enjoy my reunion dinner later on cause I can taste nothing. At all. I am so lucky man.

Seriously, is our school really THAT desperate for money? And we have to WALK for the SCHOOL. Shit. I don't see why do we always have to donate to our school for its "equipment and building developement". Whatever. I think I'm only going to try fill up all of the $2 boxes. Full-stop. No more. And if my mood is good, maybe one of the $5 box. And the school is so thick-skinned to put TWO boxes for the $100 and above donation. I think whoever can donate $50 is already my hero. Much less say $100 and above. My god.

Why is it that I have to suffer all these and not You? Give me a very good reason and I'll accept it no matter what it is. Thank You.

2007-02-16T01:06:00.000-08:00

Yes, today made this week a good week! :D It really feels good helping people. Seeing the smiles on their faces. The feeling is AMAZING :) We were supposed to be 'befrienders' to the elderly folks today. And when the whole thing ended, those elderly folks were really happy and when they said 'thank you' so sincerely, I almost cried. I don't know why, but well, I felt a sense of achievement then.

Me and Joyce were talking about what will happen to our clique and our class next year. I guess most of us will be seperated. I detest the homeroom system for letting us have so little time to bond as a class. Shit that. I really don't want this year to end but unfortunately, time is passing so so quickly. Term 1 is gonna be over soon. I hate the feeling of people leaving me. Shit that too.

Chinese New Year is coming soon. So, Happy New Year everyone! :D

At times, I feel if what I want is too much. Is trying to be someone close to you that hard? Trying to make the first move but afraid that you would think the other way. Waiting for You to make the first move but you don't seem to care. Sometimes, I really wonder if I should stop; cause it does hurt.

2007-02-15T05:02:00.000-08:00

Valentines' Day is over and it's sad that I didn't have time to blog ON Valentines' Day itself. Yes, tournament. And the greastest thing, I lost my match yesterday. Shit ass. Spoit my mood for the other half of the day. Though we still won overall.

A big, big thank you to those of you who remembered to give me presents yesterday!!!! :D Loved them all :) And the chocolates were specially sweet yesterday eh. Maybe cause it's Valentines'! Lol.

I am very busy this whole week cause of trainings and tournaments and got a stupid scolding (and I mean serious scolding. He shouted like nobody's business can.) from Mr.L for not doing our CIP which we actually did but what happened was because of a miscommunication and he simply doesn't get it. Seriously, what was he thinking? Spoit my mood too.

And today was as bad. I don't know why, but for some stupid reason, I was moody for the whole morning. And though I saw something which supposed to get me all excited and jumpy and high, I was emotionless. Serious. Even NADINE could tell. Well, it may be because of the Math stuff which I just couldn't get, or just simply, moody.

This week supposed to be a good week but what did it turn out as? Great. Absolutely great.

Tomorrow's Xin Nian Kuai Le celebration and we Sec 2s and Sec 5s are supposed to dosome CIP thing with the old folks and stuff like that. It's a good thing and I guess I will enjoy doing it. Let us all hope that it will make the last day of the week a very good one :)

I gotta go befriend History for now.

Oh, Happy New Year by the way.

:D

2007-02-12T02:54:00.000-08:00

Okay. Yes, I know it's been long since I've blogged. So here I am.

Last few weeks have been really busy and hectic and busy and hectic. Competition going on, new Maths topic which I seriously don't understand a single shit and staying back because of the stupid CIP thing which I spent so much time, okay. Not me. The rest. To decorate the butterflies and the pigs and in the end, guess what. The teachers don't want them cause they are not up to standered. Eh eh eh, please. All the teachers so free they go and do themselves lah. Then we see what is up to THEIR standered. And Sam YY was making me pissed by saying some stuppid stuff which I didn't bother to remember.

The match played by 'B' Div was okay. We won with a score of 5-0. WELL DONE, PL!!! :D

Oh oh oh! And most importantly,

THANK YOU KARIN LEE FOR HELPING ME DO MY PAPER CUTSSSSS!!! :D I owe you many many!!!!

2007-02-02T01:53:00.000-08:00

It has been a week and this week, time doesn't fly as fast as the previous weeks. I wonder why? Tournament's next Friday and I feel as though our team's not well-prepared. But well, we shall let luck do the job. :) The Emo Bug finally caught me. I usually escape from it but well, I'm at my weakest point today. And best of all, Nadine didn't come and the Badminton girls went off which means our clique was left with me and Joyce alone. Best. -___-

Does it hurt for an extra friend to be there for you? Well, sometimes it hurts to see you like this. I'm trying. But what's the use? I don't even know, or rather, think if you even notice what I'm doing.

Got scolded by Miss C for helping ET count the number of words in her Summary -__- Fine, it's a test, but I'm only helping ET count her words! What the hell. Had to stay back to help out in the decorations for CNY. It was crazy. Lol. Crazy in a good way. :D This made my day cause we were really craaazy! :D

Finally, congradulations Badminton Girls! You must do your ULTIMATE BEST, and I really mean ULTIMATE BEST to win Ang*****. YES!!! ALL THE WAY PL!!! :D

Let us all hope next week would be an EXTREMELY good week to make up for my emo day today. I didn't get emo no matter what happened before, so next week shall be the week to make it up for today. It's a punishment, Week. >:(

2007-01-26T20:18:00.000-08:00

Friday

Nothing much really happened during lessons (except Maths test of course, which was fine. :D). Until an announcement which was made by Miss.G (During our History. HAHAHAHAH.) for everyone including staff, to proceed to the hall for some small assembly thing. Me and Zhiying got so excited till we were litterally laughing all the way while we walk to the hall from our classroom. Everyone got to the hall and principle was standing infront, looking like she just lost her favourite soft toy. We had The Small Assembly is because of a certain thing that some girl's mother did, which concerns our school's reputation. Her mother complained to the press about our school saying that her daughter was scolded many times because of her naturally-brown-streaks-of-hair on, her hair. Like that also wanna call the press. Just tell me.

So Me and Zhiying were thinking about reasons we could sue people with and make it the headlines like how that girl's mother did:

1. Two girls quarrelled to see who's taller.
2. Two bestfriends fought over who should use the toilet cubicle first.
3. Two PL-lites quarrelled over who's heavier.
4. Two childhood friends quarrelled over a plate of food. (AHAHAHAHAHAHA)

There were somemore riduculous ones that we thought of but well, I should not name them all out in case the press comes find me :D If all these were really the headlines, ALL the readers will sue the press instead. AHAHAHHAAHHAA :D

And thank you Zhiying for advertising my blog on your blog. So everyone, please go to Zhiying's blog for the other version of the story; www.stuckinabrokenlife.blogspot.com

Today

Everything was going alright until my mother called the Table-tennis shop asking for the shoes. And all thanks to Joyce Teo Min Jia, the shoe may not arrive till AFTER our competition. Thanks ALOT, Joyce. Much appreciated.
And to add on to my list-of-irritating-things-that-happened-in-a-day, I am having BAD BAD BAD muscle aches due to the stupid skipping thing we had for PE yesterday. I can't even walk properly. The ultimate. I run or do what thing nothing happen, skip only then all the muscles start aching.
What is WRONG with this world?

2007-01-20T00:25:00.003-08:00

ELIZABETH TAN SHI HUI. Okay. That's all I have for you, ET :D

Today kinda rocked in a certain way but when I thought my day was perfect, Mr Wonderful Kim spoiled it by making some people cry. >:( Hate it. And what's wrong with making a suggestion, may I ask? Some people just don't get it.

The friendly match with VJC was, well, amusing. I played and guess who were my opponents; the first and second singles. Yes. Best. Got so many people to pair with, must be them. So without asking, you guys should know the results hor.

I just realised I lost the paper of the 20 cheng yus. Yes. All the really, very best for me.

Tomorrow there's Maths test. Good luck man. Just pray that my calculator's battery won't suddenly be sleepy and decided to sleep.

2007-01-20T00:25:00.002-08:00

Tomorrow there will be a friendly match against VJC. Let us just prepare for the worst. And may the Lord keep our opponents calm so they won't be so ruthless during the match. Amen.

I fell as though there's not enough days in one week leh. Cause of all the work and tests coming up, 5 days feels like 1/2 day. I'm also gonna shoot myself if I don't memorise 20 cheng yus and the ALL of the chemical formulaes by Monday. I got to stay back tomorrow and at night I need to watch tv. Saturday, I've got to go attend a chalet. Whole day. Sunday, I've got to get some stuff done. WHOLE DAY. Which means I'm left with Friday. I can do it. Yes, wish me all the best please. Thank you.

Ooooohhhh man!!! 20 cheng yus lehhhh!!! How to memorise?!?!?!?! And the best of all, it's Chinese. My gosh. Don't need 20. I 5 chengyus also got problem. How to memorise 20?????

Chemical formulaes leh? I don't even UNDERSTAND please. Magdelene ah, magdelene. Easy lah hor. Chem very easy. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh!! :0

Okay Rachel, you're doing VERY fine. Keep up the good work. :)

2007-01-20T00:25:00.001-08:00

Oh man oh man :) Today has been an emotional day for some and a crazy day for some. Well, for me, IT HAS BEEN A CCRRAAZZYY DAY! :D Training was well, funny! :) As usual, Anguilia was making us all swear but for once, she was funny today. Only for that few minutes. She said a boy wanted to go home just because he had a patch of sore on his thigh. HAHAHAHAH. He said it was very pain and called his mum to ask her to pick him up from school. HAHAHAHA. And when the teacher asked the mother, she said :" Yes. I want my son to come home." HAHAHAHAHHAA. JUST LAUGH OUT LOUD LOUD LOUD EH. Lol.

You're not alone

Together we stand

I'll be by your side, you know I'll take your hand

When it gets cold

And it feels like the end

There's no place to go

You know I won't give in

No I won't give in

Keep holding on

'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Just stay strong

'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you

There's nothing you could say

Nothing you could do

There's no other way when it comes to the truth

So keep holding on

'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

"So far away

I wish you were here

Before it's too late, this could all disappear

Before the doors close

And it comes to an end

With you by my side I will fight and defend" [Yes, we'll be there :)]

Hear me when I say, when I say I believe

Nothing's gonna change, nothing's gonna change destiny

Whatever's meant to be will work out perfectly

Yes girl. I know you'll make it. We'll all be here and we'll make it through together :) Stay Strong and I know you will! :D Loves!

2007-01-20T00:25:00.000-08:00

He made my day! :D

It's Saturday today and I'm getting real bored. Didn't go to the chalet in the end (SORRY, Daryl!) cause of all the stupid-marshmallow-irritating-brinjal homework and due to the irregular break times in school, I often go hungry and thus, not being able to absorb what teachers are talking about so I have to revise and catch up with the rest. Shit crap.

Wish me all the best.

2007-01-19T03:31:00.000-08:00

Time really flies this week. I was enjoying the breaks on Monday and before I knew it, I was dreading 2 periods of Chinese and 2 periods of History (one after another somemore. BEST.) this afternoon. Thursday was the really the best cause we didn't have much lessons. SAY HOORAY! :D I really, really wonder why the school have PLENTY of lockers everywhere but they don't let us use them. Why huh. Can anybody tell me. Everyone looks like they've run 4 rounds around the track after climbing up the stairs all the way up. What's best is the classrooms are all so far apart eh.

Almost everyone slept during History class today cause we used up all of our energy doing the Chinese compo. Equation --> One Chinese compo = 4 hours of sleep. And compo best. I forgot how to write 'table' in chinese. Went to Wisma with Sharmaine after school to get a present for my cousin. I was in the toilet and everything was quiet until I heard an amazing sound which broke the silence; PPPPPPPUUUUUUUUUUUUTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!! My gosh eh. I IMMEDIATELY laugh I tell you first. HAHAHAHAHA. Super funny.

OH! AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOYCE TEO! ;D Bought a small cake for Joyce and held an extremely mini celebration for her. Lol. I think the surprise sort of failed :D cause we wanted to cover her eyes and then surprise her with everyone around but guess what. Only me, Nadine, Sharm, Zy and my sis arrived early. Waited for ET for so long cause we need her lighter before we could call Joyce to come. Wait so long and in the end she don't have a lighter -____- so we went each canteen stall to ask for lighter and managed to get one. I brought joyce there and covered her eyes but she didn't let me. WALAO. JOYCE TEO. PEOPLE WANT GIVE YOU SURPRISE THEN YOU LIKE THAT. >:( So in the end she saw the lighted thing and she wanted to go away. AND THE BESTEST. SHE DIDN'T WANT TO EAT THE CAKE. (Oh, me and Zy thinks she's aneroxic cause she can survive without eating the WHOLE DAY. Tell me how eh, Joyce :0) Eh. Please leh. I went all the way to Bread Talk to specially go buy for you then you like that. Next time just write a note on A4 size paper then give you can already lah hor. Humph.

Going to spent my weekends studying and try to catch up with my work :) I know I'm good :D Okay. Bye bye.

2007-01-12T01:36:00.000-08:00

I know my blog's gonna be dead sooner or later. So now I'm here to revive it.

First few days of school have been alright, except for the homeroom system which is very annoying cause you have to move around for each lesson. This equals to climbing up staircases as well. So yes, shit.

And now, the new time-table is just OUT. No free periods at all except 2 days, breaks are DAMN far apart and guess what. Monday's breaks are at 9.20am and 2pm. And the best of all, there is only ONE break to last us all day on Tuesday which is at 8.40am. WHAT RUBBISH. Yes, all the best for us. There seems to be more lessons in a day too. Double shit.

Had bad gastric today though I didn't feel hungry at all. Couldn't really sit/stand up straight and had to go home all alone enduring the pain all the way home -___- And up till now, the pain haven't subsided. Best.

Training days are increased to 3 times a week which is good in a way cause I don't like to go home so early :) Badminton competition starts next thoursday so, ALL THE WAY PL!!! JIA YOU, JIA YOU! JIA YOU, JIA YOU! WOOHOO!!!! =D

Though school lessons are irritating and boring, I still can't wait till school starts on Monday. Why? Don't ask me. Cause I don't know too. LOL :)

Anyhow, SEE YOU GUYS ON MONDAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!! =D

OHOH!! AND THANK YOU TO THOSE WHO REMEMBERED MY BIRTHDAY AND GAVE ME PRESENTSSS!!! LOVE YOU GUYS!! MWAH! =D

2006-11-19T19:18:00.000-08:00

It's the 20th and I'm leaving soonnnnnn!! My dad came back with a luggage full of rubbish which we don't even need -__-

"Daddy, why you buy so many things?? We also don't need leh."
"Down there cheap mah."

So cheap then buy huh. The house there cheap, then buy also lor.

He bought 10 over long sleeve shirts of the same kind only thing different sizes for me, my mum, himself and my sis. He also bought 3 knitted-jackets of the same kind only different colour. Then, he bought 2 mp3which he already bought on his last trip there. So in total, we have 4 of the SAME mp3. He bought boots for me and my sis, Timberland-like shoes for himself. 2 long winter socks of SUPER, bad quality which makes you feel like peeling your skin off when you wear it because it's so itchy. Finally, he bought 20 over vcds, cds and dvds.

Then I asked him: Daddy, you got too much money to spend huh?
And he replied: Down there cheap mah.

Everything I say he always answer back the same answer. Kill me eh, please.

Then I asked him again: Are we going to bring EVERYTHING?
He replied: Ya lah. Don't bring then buy for what.

WALAO. His luggage with all the newly bought things and his present clothes already want to burst already. So all 4 of us the clothes seperated into 4 different luggages also want to burst.
Then go there how to buy things back??? No space right?

Guess what he said: "Also good lah. You all go there can see cannot buy. You all just try on for the feeling of it then put back on the rack. So the $400 for you all can keep at home lah. Don't need to bring."

Best.

I will be leaving on a 10.45pm flight on Friday. And will be leaving home at around 8pm. So whoever wanna sent me goodbye message, please do so before that time or Miss Rachel would not be able to read it. =D

I guess this will be the last post till I'm back with all the pictures! =)

Goodbye everyone!

2006-11-15T23:45:00.000-08:00

Out of curiosity, I decided to look through my sister's cupboard. I found LOADS AND LOADS of stuff which are unbelievable. No wonder she doesn't like people to look in her cupboard. Once I opened it up, I found:

1. A small plastic container FILLED with stud earrings. Well, to many people, what's so amusing right. Because she isn't those kind who likes to doll herself up. Much less change her earrings. I mean, that's what I see from her outside. Inside her, I wouldn't know and I don't want to know. Trust me, it'll be scary.

2. A SUPER big hooped black earring and a SQUARE, POLKA DOTTED one. Tell me, isn't she scary? There'll be more later on. But on the outside, she looks like a person who couldn't be bothered. The fact is she does do it when she goes out with her friends and only do so once she step out of the house.

3. A bag FULL of nail polishes. And I really mean FULL. All sorts of colours. Even brown. And HOT PINK. My gosh. And I read her notebook which contains her 'wishlist' , saying that she wants to paint her nails ALL DIFFERENT KINDS OF COLOUR. Just faint. And when I asked her why her nails were painted hot pink, guess what she answered? For fun. LAUGH OUT LOUD LOUD.

4. Her wishlist. Which says: Tote bag. (Once, she came back home with a MYUK tote bag and she said her friend bought it for her. I think is she ask them one lah huh. And she said she don't like it. How to explain the "Must!" beside that sentence? Paint nails all different colour. I mentioned already. Second earhole. MY GOODNESS. What is she turning into??? And please, she won't even dare. This one's more ridiculous: FRENCH MENICURE. Woah. Everybody, 1, 2, 3, drop dead.

5. A super Ah Lian and I seriously mean AH LIAN necklace. SUPER ULTRA ugly. Green in colour, from small beads then suddenly got super big beads in the centre. And it's so super chunky that when she wears it, I think it'll be a burden to her.

6. A keychain that's custom-made with her name on and a 'PLMGS 06'". Sure is expensive from how heavy the metal is.

7. A clay container FILLED with saga seeds. Not so surprising right. I went to check my bottle of saga seeds and it went down by HALF. KILL HERRRRRRRR!! >:(

8. She stole my necklace's stone. As in those kind of got colour and it's very nice that kind of round stone!! But I took it back from her =) I doubt she'll notice. Lol.

9. Our school's belt. And it's a new belt. Tell me is she crazy or crazy huh. Of all things, why keep a belt inside her drawer?!

10. The most ultra shocking thing I've ever found and it's very unbelievable. A TURQOISE COLOURED T.U.B.E. FROM THIS FASHION. MY GOOOOOODNNNEEEESSSSSSSSSS EHHHH!!!!! What's living in her brain???!!!!! Someone please tell me. And it's DEFINITELY too big for her. Okay. Maybe can wear but it'll be loose. She is so skiiinneeeyyyyyyy. Please lah huh. My god. I can't believe it eh. KILL ME PLEASEEEEE!

Okay. Done. It's still unbelievable and I'm waiting for a day when I can ask her what is that and pretend I didn't know. But she'll most likely, no. 100% say "Nothing lah." in a very annoyed manner or nothing at all. I don't want her to spoil my reputation next year when she comes over. S.H.I.T.

P.S I put this very small cause I don't want to make it so obvious. In case any of her friends come by and sees this, I'm dead.

2006-11-12T18:35:00.000-08:00

Okay. Blogging mood is present today. Mr. Lazy is gone now =D

Went to Bishan Library with Joyce and ET on wednesday. A pity Zhiying can't make it. Some other time, yeah? =) Once everyone is present, went to eat at Ajisen and the waitress there is the best. One example:

"Eh, excuse me, inside got seafood?"

"No. Squid."

HAHAHHAHAHA. They know their stuff so well right. Say until so confident somemore. Hahhahahaa. Walked around and then headed to the library. Fought over some books with Joyce Teo. I WON >:) Stayed in the library for quite awhile and went to the arcade. Played the basketball thing, where you have a limited time and you have to hit the highscore within that period. Failed. Needless to say. 3 to a station and we were laughing like free and the balls keep flying out of the cage. Hahhahaa. spent $4 and ET went home =( Went to Swensons to eat ice creammmmmm! =P Spent an hour there and then homed =D

Going for show later with my cousin, catching "Material Girls". Pray that its good =)

2006-11-06T20:57:00.000-08:00

I am finally in the blogging mood today. Thus, this post. Don't know why but I've lost interest in blogging. I guess this is what happens when you watch too much tv. Once I sit on the sofa, it will so hard to get up. And I'm serious. even to take the controler and change the channel is a chore.

Laziness. What to do. Can't help it.

I am rotting at home bit by bit every single day till I wish I had loads of homework so I have something to do though I still haven even started on the homework I actually received. Blame Mr.Lazy.

My dad's gonna go on his business trip soon on Thursday and that means no shopping on weekends cause got no driver=no car to travel around in. My mum said she wants to go shopping and travel around by the MRT. Kill me please. So mah fun! Blame Mr.Lazy again. He'll be back on the 18th November and then on the 24th it'll be everyone's turn to go =D

So from now till I have the mood to blog, everyone please have a nice day everyday.

2006-10-26T01:51:00.000-07:00

It's been 16 days since I've last blogged. Quite long hor. Many things happened during this period of time but nothing that important/serious/gan chiong/scary/sad/happy till I have to blog it down. Lol. Okay. My results. Quite okay, at least I improved. So hurray =) Considering my type of person who seldom improve on things unless I'm very much interested in it.

Well, today's the last day of school for the year. And we are moving back to our home.

I'LL MISS SO MANY PEOPLE LEHHHHHHHHH!!!! =((((

Though we'll be in the same class again next year but what's the point lah huh. Everything also banded. -___- Oh man, I miss all of you already =(( 2 months. It's only been a few hours and I'm already missing so many people. How to survive you come and tell me.

Had a great time today in school =D Took photos and I think majeority (is that how you spell that?) of the photos got me and ET. Cause just before they press the button we ran in and pose infront. Lol. So I think not many people will miss me cause my face is in all the photos. EH. CANNOT LIKE THAT. Photo is photo right. Real person is real person. =D

-Terminated-

2006-10-16T19:58:00.000-07:00

ROCKS ROCKS ROCKS =D I think Goong is the bestest Korean drama I've watched, besides The Little Bride and Save The Last Dance For Me. =D

2006-10-16T19:35:00.000-07:00

The haze. That haze. This haze.

I think all the doctors love the haze cause it enables them to earn more money. Anyway, gave school a miss today. Went to see the doctor yesterday cause of my flu and cough. The doctor checked my temperature - 36.3 so low hor. Then once I come home, my temperature shot up to 38 -_____- And now even though the fan is facing DIRECTLY at me, I'm still sweating. And my head like got 1000kg of lego inside like that. Need my hand to support.

The lozenges the doctor gave me was called "Tussils" instead of "Strepsils" And the packaging is the same -___- I didn't get an MC from the docter cause I thought I could still go to school. So the doctor gave me an excuse sheet to allow me to skip me CCA for one week. See, from no fever become got fever. Don't need an MC become need an MC.

Now I know the meaning of "life is so unpredictable" =D

Last week of school and this year is coming to an end. So fast. This time I think is sit bullet train. Gosh, I'm gonna miss 1b2 ='( Let us all hope no one changes class and we can be united as ONE again! =D

My flagm is brownish yellow in colour. Tell me is it sick or sick.

2006-10-05T22:14:00.000-07:00

EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WOOHOOOOOOO!!!!!!!! =D One year so fast over =) Time really flies. Must be sit aeroplane. =D AALLLOOOT of unpleasant things happened during each papers..BUT. Its all overrrrrrrrrrrr =D Hope for the bestest of all bestest =) BUT chinese was horrible today >:( boo. Okay. I wanna go recharge and eat and watch tveeee!!

Oh, I love you so! My tv, oh! My tv! =D

2006-09-29T05:08:00.000-07:00

I think there are alot of very wierd and unusual people in the world. Okay. Who I'm gonna mention are from my tuition class and there are 2 of them only. Okay. Not alot. Okay. First person.

"Eh, teacher. The answer no 3 leh"

"Huh? What no 3?"

"There! The answer there is 578 no 3"

"Huh?? Where got? 578 where got 3? Oh oh, the calulation huh?"

"Yah. Is 578 not 3578."

"Correct what!"

"No. You see ah. Because 12 times 30 is 360. So the rest of the working wrong already."

"Where you get the 30 from? Where got 30? Is 12 times 80 what."

*rubs his eyes REAL HARD*

"Sorry, short-sighted." Then he treat as if nothing happened and my teacher stared at him for awhile.

HAHAHAHAHHAAHAHAHHAAHA. LAUGH OUT LOUD LOUD LOUD LOUD PLEASE! SUPER FUNNY!!! And he was a malaysian, so his english pronounciation was not that good. And he speaks one word at a time, vvveerryy slowly. HAHHAAHAHHA. Okay. Next person. No offence but she is plump. Not fat. Plump only. I suspect she likes this guy in my class cause he dind't come for the past few weeks and she was still okay, till he turned up for tuition today.

"Teacher, can I go and throw my rubbishhh?" She asked out of the blue when teacher was still going through a question. And worse, she said it in a baby voice. yes. OMG.

"Wait lah. 2 more questions then I let you all have break."

"Orh. Okies. Eh? That one how come got yi ge 3 come out de?" OH MY GOSH. LOL. SUDDENLY SPEAK CHINESE EH.

Then she started taking out her specs, re-tie her hair. Then once finish tying, (her hair can be tied up in a ponytail without any loose hair dropping out) she PURPOSELY pull out one bunch of hair from the fringe there. OH GOSH. PLEASE. Then she lift that bunch and put on her specs then adjust her hair nice nice then she smile to herself -________- If you see the whole thing real life, you will just LAUGH TO YOURSELF. Which I did. I couldn't control.

Okay. There's one more but thats not so serious so nevermind =) Oh oh oh!

Thank you Sharon Lam Hui Min!!!! =D woohoo! =)))

(P.S. Eh, your name specially put in YELLOW colour leh. Royal, precious and is my colour you know. Be honoured hor.)

2006-09-29T05:05:00.000-07:00

3 down, 5 more to go

English. I knew it. I knew I would screw up again. CRAPPPP. My summary got 20 over more words?? SHIITTTT. This time I didn’t dare not to wear my specs in case my nice eyeballs mistook the time AGAIN. But compared to the previous papers, today was the best.

The only thing I wanna say about is the women sitting beside me. The fan was already so noisy and she adds somemore noise. I think she’s a little bit off eh.

“Shhhit lah.” When she didn’t know how to do. (yes, it’s the same girl)

“Ugh, ugh” When she was erasing something REAL HARD.

“1,2,3…Wahh, shit” When she was counting the number of words in the summary.

“Hahahhaha” When she got no more strength to erase.

WHAT THE HELL CAN.

-__________-

I don’t know how am I gonna survive for 5 more papers.

2006-09-28T04:14:00.000-07:00

1 down, 6 more to go

Had my history paper today. *flap-flap* 17 marks just flew away like that. I had my specs with me, but I was lazy to wear it. So, as usual, I tried looking at the time left after I did section A (part 3).

"1hr left. Okay. Just nice."

Then I took my time to do the source-based questions. When I was doing, taking my time, everyone seemed to be rushing. Then, I decided to wear my specs and see what the teacher wrote on the board. I saw a section B (part 2) or something like that. Then I looked and looked for that question and IT WAS AT THE LAST PAGE AND I DIDN'T KNOW. So I looked at the time. 15MIN LEFT.

"Wah. Why the time past so fast huh."

Then I estimated the time I took to do the source-base. 30min. And I counted back. THERE WAS ACTUALLY ONLY 30MIN LEFT WHEN I DID FINISH THE SEC A (PART 3). Wahhhhhh...I WANNA CHANGE MY EYEBALLS LEH. So I was rushing like mad women.

"10 more min!"

And I was only at the 1st question, part c. Then I tried to write as fast as I can, but instead wrote slower and slower cause my hand tired. So I stopped and counted 5seconds then started writing again.

"Put your pens down! Stop writing!"

And I was still writing my answer for the last question. Well, to console myself, at least I wrote 1 and 1/2 sentence. Better than nothing lah HOR. For the previous one, I wrote 4 lines for A 6 MARKS QUESTION. Best. And 1 and 1/2 sentence for AN 8 MARKS QUESTION. Bestest.

Cassandra made me go even more crazy by telling me the answers for 2 questions, which I found out I got wrong. And now, I just checked the txb for the answer and guess what? I GOT ONE MORE QUESTION WRONG. This is how the 17 marks disappeared.

You know what, I think my eyeballs rock.

First oral, compo, then history. I'm so excited to know what comes next.

Yay. 3 cheers please.

2006-09-26T04:27:00.000-07:00

Once I came back from school, I bathed and I immediately slept. Till now. Then, I'm gonna study for 2hrs, and then sleep again AND WAKE UP AT 3AM TO STUDY. I think I sound crazy lah huh. But some people say you can absorb better. So I'm gonna try it! =D Wish me luck.

I'M WAITING FOR MY DURIANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN >:(

I'm getting impatient.

I WANT MY DURIANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN !!!

Okay. Enough. Back to history. crap. I don't like =(

2006-09-25T00:50:00.000-07:00

Monday monday monday. Today is Monday! =D NADIAH AH NADIAH. Assembly was warm. First period was cold. Second period was warm. Third period and fourth period was cold. Fifth and sixth period was warm and finally, seventh and eighth period was cold. I think there's something wrong with my body temperature man.

Okay. Thursday's history and I havent memorise anything yet. Can't get into my head ahhhhhhh =(

Oh oh oh oh! DEE! DEE! DEE! DEE! WOOT!!!!! =D

2006-09-22T20:01:00.000-07:00

I can't help it. I need to blog. So here it goes.

Screwed up my oral, screwed up my compo, what next. SHITTTTTTT. I was trying to decide weather to re-write the compo and change the question during english compo. I didn't wear my specs so I could'nt see what was the time. I assumed there was 15min left so I decided not to change and sleep to help me forget how horribly I wrote. And I woke up after what seems like 1hr and looked at the clock PROPERLY. And guess what. There was actually 45min left and I used the time to SLEEP and not WRITE. So the time left now is 13min.
#$%^&^^&$(^&^%!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was crying and screaming and shouting out LOUD LOUD LOUD inside I tell you. Crap. So guess what. I wrote 200+ more words for the LETTER WRITING then the COMPO. Shitness >:(

Chinese next. So far so good till Wan Leng starts saying "SSSShhhhhhit" throughout for the whole of the examination BECAUSE HER ELECTRONIC DICTIONARY BUTTON SPOIL.
-________________________________-

I knew what I wanted to write at first until she said "SSShhhit" and then POP! Gone. Then I got it, and then she said"SSSShhit" and POP! There it goes again. So I was being popped at for the whole of the examination and I could only start writing after she said her "Shit". So, I wrote down what I thought of as fast as I can, incase she said another "Shit" and the whole thing got popped at again. And luckily, I finished just in time =D

CRAP. I JUST REALISED MY FINGER IS HAS A SUPER DEEP CUT AND ITS BLEEDING AND I DIDN'T EVEN FEEL ANYTHING!?!?!?!?!?!?!

I think the EOYs can cause people to be so stress till they loose their sense of touch.

2006-09-21T01:06:00.000-07:00

WWWOOOAAHHH WWWWOOOAAAAHHH WWWWOOOAAAHHH. lol. My english oral my english oral my english oralllllll. Rushed to get Mrs Ramesh! =D I think she's the besttttt =)) I read the passage and I blanked out when I saw the picture. I was staring at mrs ramesh and then she started asking me questions, so I answered and then she asked me some more questions and I answered =D So in the end, I was just answering what she asked. 9 CHEERS! =D I just realised History paper is on thurs and I haven't memorise a single thing from the notes I typed. SHIT. But I don't have that sense of urgency yet. Why huh?

PE today was...well, not fun but not bored either =) I was trying to shoot the basketball into the hoop my standing very near at the side of the hoop, but still failed -_______- Then I tried standing at the very end of the line thing. I tried shooting and IT GOT IN. SAY WOAHHHH =D then I tried standing in front of the hoop, which supposed to be easier...but FAILED
-_________- forget it Paddy, I think I won't make it lah huh.

Tomorrow's the first paper of EOYs. Crap. It's approaching really, really soon and here I am still blogging so frequently -____-

I think I should stop. So...till after the EOYs readers. BYE BYE =)

broken strings;

2006-09-20T02:06:00.000-07:00

Yesterday

It was hectic eh. SUPER. Played WWE with melanie and her weapon was the hair of my puppet and my weapon was cellophane paper. (IT'S YELLOW!) And we both got the same score. 1-1 =D Ping shou!!! =D Okay. Thats all actually.

Today

THE ART PLAY WAS GREAT! =D We only practised twice and we got a very good grade =D
I had chinese oral and I think I screwed up the conversation part -____- I knew I will screw it up somehow but I didn't expect it to be THAT BAD. I was panting like mad women when it I was waiting for my turn in the waiting room. I looked at the passage and I went "Oh shit" cause I just glanced through and I DON'T KNOW HOW TO READ ALOT OF WORDS. When it was my turn..I looked at the teacher...and...I...I...I...I...I....smiled =) I began reading and when I didnt know the words I said "wo *ahem*jiu" so he stopped me halfway and we started on the conversation...and the very first question he asked me, I got stuck. Then I looked at the security guard standing at the back gate and then I looked at him and then I looked on the table and then I managed to get an answer =D So learn from me. When you dont know the answer, look at security guard, then the teacher then the table and you'll get an answer! =D okay. back. As for the last question he asked me, I didn't know what he meant so I just stared at him and ni kan wo, wo kan ni! =D And then I remembered he was asking me a question so I went "uhhh..wo...erm...wo...." for quite awhile then I think he knows I don't get it so he explained to me what he meant. LOL. then I gave the same answer as the previous one cause I didn't know what to say.

Pleeeeeeeeease at least let me get more than 20/100..................=(

2006-09-18T00:59:00.000-07:00

IT'S MONDAY TODAYYY! =D And today I am all happy happy =))) Went to school early to help blow BALLOONS =D OH OH! THERE'S YELLOW BALLOON EH!! ONE AND ONLY YELLOW BALLOON AND I OWN IT!! =D Gave my wonderful wonderfullest presents to MELANIE LIANG (happy birthday again! I know my cake VERY big EH.) =D Lessons were boring BUT I was still HAPPY! =D

Went for dental check-up =( The dentist helped me clean my teeth and let me wear SUNGLASSES! =D The sunglasses was damn cool. =D the lense was BLACK and the side was RED =D And she used that long long straw-lookalike thing and put inside my mouth to suck out all the water. The nurse said the sound is quite scary....and the sound turned out to be BBBZZZ -_______- Missed Bio (crap) because of that and Miss Chan didn't come so all we did was a worksheet =D

GOT SCOLDED BY MS C FOR TALKING AGAIN. AND I WAS NOT TALKING EH. I REPEAT. NOT TALKING. Okay. I was. BUT I WAS EXPLAINING THINGS TO ADELENE TONG. humph. That time I was explaining things to wen shi and she scolded me. I was explaining things to amanda, she also scold me. WAH LAOOOOOO >:(

It rained very heavily today. Very nice =) Cool and windy! =D But after awhile it stopped =( And I didn't notice it till I looked out of the window after school ends lol.

I have to seriously, seriously and I mean SERIOUSLY study ALOT ALOT more for science ccause I got 2/10 and 4/10 for physics MCQ -___________- and I counted the results I needed to get for this term in order to get an A2 for overall, I need to get 80+ for each subject
-___- Ah pui. >:(

It's impossible =(

Happyasapea lol.

-zoomed off-

2006-09-15T05:32:00.000-07:00

It's been a GREAT day for me so far =D though I'm struggling like crazy to type finish my notes for all of ther subjects by tomorrow night. I'M FEELING SUGAR HIGH NOW. ET! ET! ET! LET'S SING OUR SUGAR HIGH SONG AND JUMP!! =D ALL THE WAY EH! WOOHOO! =D

okay. thats enough. gotta get back to my work now. have a nice night.

It's finally over =)

-terminated-

2006-09-15T00:41:00.000-07:00

"Speechless" by The Veronicas

Feels like I have always known you

And I swear I dreamt about you

All those endless nights I was alone

It's like I've spent forever searching

Now I know that it was worth it

With you it feels like I am finally home

Falling head over heels

Thought I knew how it feels

But with you it's like the first day of my life

Cause you leave me speechless

When you talk to me

You leave me breathless

The way you look at me

You manage to disarm me

My soul is shining through

Can't help but surrender

My everything to you

I thought I could resist you

I thought that I was strong

Somehow you were different from what I've known

I didn't see you coming

You took me by surprise and

You stole my heart before I could say no

Falling head over heels

Thought I knew how it feels

But with you it's like the first day of my life

You leave me speechless

When you talk to me

You leave me breathless

The way you look at me

You manage to disarm me

My soul is shining through

I can't help but surrender

Oh no

My everything to you

You leave me speechless

(the way you smile, the way you touch my face)

You leave me breathless

(it's something that you do I can't explain)

I run a million miles just to hear you say my name

Baby

You leave me speechless

You leave me breathless

The way you look at me

You manage to disarm me

My soul is shining through

I can't help but surrender

My everything to you

I think this is a SUPER DUPER FLUPER PUPER GUPER TUPER KUPER MUPER NUPER nice song =D

2006-09-14T00:42:00.000-07:00

It's thursday today and it's one more day to the weekends! =D I don't usually look forward to weekends last term...but somehow, things changed =) Got lectured. No. Not lectured. Just a talk or something like that with Ms Chew this morning cause she said a teacher told her that she saw me laughing during the national anthem -________- Yah. I was laughing. But for AWHILE only eh please. I was avoiding one small white thing that flew past while others were avoiding big bees. I found it funny so I laughed and then got called out by Ms Chew -______- I was nodding my head all the time when she was talking and I was reading the notices on the notice board behind her. LOL.

Got back my result slip and I am SUPER angry at the way the school chose to count the marks. From A1 drop aaaaalllll the way to C5. DAMN BEST. If don't count in the previous terms' results, I would get 6% more for my overall. 6% MORE LEH. Wah laoooooo.

Today is our last lesson for Guzheng. We were divided into groups to play different tunes. It was FUN =) Then I realised I got a SUPER BIG AND RED blister on my thumb. It just recovered and now got new one. WTH. Then Yuxian helped me make it burst. And yellowish and redish liquid came out =D

I just found out I still have ALOT ALOT of things left to study and I have a feeling I have not enough time...so...I...guess...I....erm...I think...I...erm...shall...erm....stop here. heh =D

It hurt, and it still does. Alot. But do I have a choice?

2006-09-13T06:23:00.000-07:00

TODAY IS WEDNESDAY. Actually, thats all I plan to type in here. But it reminds me of something that happened during home econs. MY NOSE DISAPPOINTED ME. We were supposed to smell the stuff inside 15 (??) testubes wrapped with aluminium foil. I took the very first one, and thought all of them were very nice smell since it was all food, I took a DEEEEEEEEPPPP breath. AND I IMMEDIATELY SHOVED THE TESTTUBE BACK INTO ITS PLACE. Wanna know what it was? VINEGER. Wahhhhh...best. I think it was the worse thing I've smelt besides the smell of unwashed and unchanged socks in a particular changing room in Robbinsons. CAN FAINT PLEASE. Wah lao. I only managed to guess 9 out of 15. Bester.

Okay. Thats all for today. Cheers. Till then =)

It's 2 days till the weekends. Another week's gone. I did it. So hooray. But what about next? And the next? Then the next? It's still gonna be hard. Shit.

2006-09-12T01:10:00.000-07:00

School today was hectic. Yes. Hectic. First time I find school days hectic. I don't know for what reason but I was very gan chiong for the whole day. I was always busy with something; undone homework, last minute revision for last minute test, searching for things I thought I brought but didn't, finding for people to lend me their textbook, copying answers for my zhuo yea and many other stuff.

I think I have to study extra hard for science and geog cause I'm failing all the revision papers. Shit.

Was the refree with Hanya for PE today. I THINK I DID WELL LOR. People don't know how to appreciate. humph. ( Oh, and I got a YELLOW whistle from the bookshop! =D )

Chinese was the WORSE. I was copying so many li jie wen da answers till my whole thumb was sore. And I have loads more to complete so I think I'm gonna do it now.

Tata! =D

It was hard. But I made it. Well done, Rachel =D

Have I?

2006-09-11T01:13:00.000-07:00

The barbeque on sunday was F-U-N =D reached east coast at 3plus and went to check in the chalet. The place was horrible please. You can see through the windows of every room leh. wth. and the toilet is SUPER dirty and dark although there are lights. And they used plastic bag kinda material for the shower curtain -______- Any time can fly away eh. And people go there usually and most likely will barbeque which means, you will need tables to put your food and stuff right. THERE IS ONLY ONE, AS TALL AS YOUR HIP, SIDE TABLE -_________- I think its super pathetic. I thought the barbeque pit was a PIT. But guess what? It was a metal box lined with aluminium foil, and you have to place it ontop of a metal stand. SOMEMORE IS DIY LEH. WAH LAO.

I couldn't stand the sight of it so I got out of the room and went to rent roller blades and skate =) It was great till I tripped over my cousins blades when I wanted to U-turn and I FELL DOWN >:( humph. It was not pain at first. And no blood. So I skate back to the chalet and sat down.....AND THE BLOOD WAS DRIPPING. MY GOSH. SCARE ME EH. I used water and clean and IT WAS DAMN PAIN. DAMN. PAIN. But still, I skated till the time was up and went to catch fishes instead =D IT WAS DAMN TIRING PLEASE. And we looked like those kids with deprived childhood. I remember we were like primary 1 or 2 when we went to catch the guppies and put it inside a pail? yes. its like that. I keep walking slowly then wanna try to attack but somehow the fishes know I'm there and they all swam away -________- AND I ONLY CAUGHT 5 GUPPIES IN 1 HOUR. humph.

Went back and started to EATEATEAT! =D The food was G-R-E-A-T la huh. Watched the recap of singapore idol and played 'polar bear'. Was fun =) Left at 12 and decided to check out instead of staying there cause the place was horrible. HAHAHA.

Today

First day of school today was bad, boring, sad, irritating and all >:( The principle was being SUPER ANNOYING early in the morning eh. SUPER. I don't wanna elaborate cause its irritating. DAMN >:(

I think I'm gonna start studying like crazy.

2006-09-07T19:56:00.000-07:00

Thought you were something different.
Felt like I have always known you.
That's when it all just fell apart.
But now I see,
I don't wanna pretend anymore.

Can it be easier?
Can I just change my life?
Cause it just seems to go bad everytime.

This isn't gonna work.
Don't call me on the phone.
I'm all out of words cause you leave me speechless.

Everyday just seems so long.
Or do we even care;
It's so unfair.

Everyday there's something new.
Now I just try to find some hope,
But it starts again.
It'll never end.

I'm heavily broken;
And I don't know what to do.
Can't you see that I'm choking?
I can't even move.

When there's nothing left to say,
What can we do?

Almost giving up on trying,
Almost heading for a fall.
And now my mind is screaming out.
But then again,
It still doesn't end.

Now, I've had enough of all the hating.
Cause no matter how I try,
I can't hate you anymore.

I comfort you through all the pain.
You can turn to me and cry.
Always understand that I will always give you all that I have inside,
Whenever you call.

I will never be too faraway,
And I won't hesitate at all,
To be the one to catch your fall.
Whenever you call.

These are sentences I took and edited from different songs which says how I feel about some stuff. I think they are so true =)

2006-09-07T18:26:00.000-07:00

WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! PAUL TWOHILL IS OUT >:( SI will no longer be funny and wacky. boo. =( spoiled my mood for the whole night though I was sleeping but still, there was no sweet dream. humph.

But looking on the bright side, HADY MIRZA IS STILL IN! =D so, YES! =)))))))))))))))))) Okay. This made my day already.

I am looking forward to tomorrow's barbequeeeeeeeeee!!! =))) I can roller-blade and eat all my troubles awayyyyyyyyyy!! =D

But for now, Geography, I'm coming.

2006-09-06T18:10:00.000-07:00

I went for a haircut last night and the hair-cutter was HORRIBLE. SHOW ME ATTITUDE LEH. I wanted her to wash my hair first cause one women said if I wash my hair first the hair would turn out better. Then, that women left me there alone on the chair and went away. Then another women, okay. Not really a women. It's a she/he. So she started to take her scissors out. Then I told her I wanted to wash my hair first and guess what she said. "Don't want. I cut your hair first." WHAT THE HELL. I CUSTOMER OR SHE CUSTOMER EH. Then I gave her that irritated look and I think she realised so she anyhow cut my hair. Cut until all my hair fall onto my face leh. FALL ONTO MY FACE. Then I stared at her then I think she realised then she shift to behind and cut. WAH LAO. Then cut already go wash hair. So put shampoo and scrub my head until SO HARD leh. Like my head is some kind of huge mosquito bite. (Eee. Sounds so gross.) Then if so hard scrub awhile not so bad. I still will forgive. BUT SHE SCRUB FOR 10MIN ON THE SAME SPOT AND IT WAS DAMN PAIN PLEASE. Then I look up at her, then somehow she knew I was grumbling so she scrub softer. STILL GOT SOMEMORE.

Then she blow dry my hair. She use the hair dryer and BLOW AT MY HEAD FOR 30MIN. In case you don't know, the hair dryer blows out HOT air. So, i was getting iritated and I shook my head. Then somehow, she knows it again, and stopped blowing. I was damn gan chiong to find out how my hair looks like if I tie it up.....and guess what man. MY POYTAIL IS SUPER SUPER SHORT. And the whole thing just sticks out -____- I SHOULDN'T HAVE PAID. $34 SOMEMORE LEH. humph.

It's just so hard

2006-09-06T00:08:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ET!!!!! =D I BOUGHT YOUR PRESENT ALREADY!!! It's my fellow zapper's birthday today, today, today!!!! =D Today training was not so bad...though got scolded for not turning up for practises...I REALLY GOT TUTION LAHHH... =( I can't wait till scool re-opens leh...I WANNA TALK TO JOYCE TEO AND ADELENE TONG AND ET (happy birthday again!) And I wanna laugh. I need to laugh. LAUGH OUT LOUD LOUD LOUD. So Joyce Teo, make me laugh please. =) I'm counting on YOU! =D I really miss you guys LOADS, ESSPECIALLY ADELENE TONG. I wonder why... =D

From a distance..... A familiar You.

I'll be waiting.

2006-09-04T19:11:00.000-07:00

THE ENDING SUPER NNNNNNIIIICCCCCCCCEEEEEEE LEHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMGJWEBXNEH. It was so touching please. "At the exhibition, I saw a very special painting. In the painting, I saw a house. A house that gave me hope and courage. In front of the house, I saw a girl. A girl that I love with all my life and she was smiling. Smiling so sweetly beside a man that was holding her hand so tightly. I will hold your hand and never let it go...From now till forever...And I will save the last dance for you" OMGJBXFBHQEHFIE TELL ME IF ITS TOUCHING OR TOUCHING HUH. OMGHWNQHI.

2006-09-03T23:29:00.000-07:00

WAH LAO. ZHIYINGGGGGGGGGG...NEVER SPECIFYYYYYY....here's another one >:(

1) Chose 5 person to do this after you've completed yours
2) Leave a tag on the person's tagboard to say that he/she have been tagged

Favourite...

1) Colour
Needless to say. YELLOW =D

2) Movie
ALOOOOOOT.

3) Day of the week
EVERYDAY! =D

4) Ice cream
All.

5) TV show
Singapore Idol =)

Current...

1) Mood
Troubled. Is that a mood? Whatever.

2) Taste
Huh? What taste?

3) Desktop
Still the same.

4) Clothes
Still the white tee. But gonna change soon cause I'm gonna bathe after this =)

5) Toenail colour
Eh...Its glittery but transparent coloured nail polish? I don't know how to describe lah.

6) Time
2.31pm

7) Annoyance
THIS QUIZ

8) Thoughts
Many..

First...

1) Crush
I REMEMBER I REMEMBER! JASON!! MY KINDERGARDEN CLASSMATE!! =D Eh, he used to like me too also okay. Looking back at it, I JUST WANNA LAUGH. WAAHAHAHAH.

2) Movie
ALOT.

3) Lie
Wow...too many to even remember the first one I told. LOL. BUT ALL WHITE LIE HORRRR. Although there's A FEW black lies lah. A FEW.

4) Music
My mum's heartbeat =)

Last...

1) Cigarette
WOAH. NO WAY. NOT EVEN TRYING. NEVER.

2) Drink
Tea =P

3) Car ride
Last night

4) Phone call
Adelene

Have you ever...

1) Dated one of your best friends?
Nope.

2) Broken the law?
Eating chewing gum counted?

3) Arrested before?
No no no.

4) Kissed someone you don't know?
Nope.

I decided to chose the last 5 person who tagged my blog, not including Poon Zhiying.

1. Yirou
2. Nellyn
3. Caselyn
4. Eudora
5. ET ET ET!!! =D

2006-09-03T22:02:00.000-07:00

POON ZHIYING. I DON'T LIKE YOU. But since I'm bored, I might as well do the quiz =D

1. When you look at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
Oh man, I WANNA WASH MY FACE AND BRUSH MY TEETH AND GO ONLINE!!! =D

2. When is the next time you will have sex?
GOSH. I HAVEN'T DONE IT YET LEH.

3. What's a word that rhymes with "DOOR" ?
Floor! =D

4. Favourite planet.
Earth. Cause no earth = no everyone

5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your mobile?
Hilary.

6. What is your favourite ringtone on your phone?
The ringtone which I set as my ringtone.

7. What kinda shirt you have on now?
Plain, white t-shirt.

8. Describe yourself in one phrase.
Its up there on the top left corner.

9. Name the brand of shoes you are currently wearing.
I'm barefooted! =D

10. Bright or Dark Brown?
Bright!

11. If you are alone in the room with two beds, which one will you sleep on?
I'll push the two beds together and sleep on BOTH! =D

12. What were you doing at midnight last night?
I was in dreamland.

13. What did your last text message say that you received on your mobile?
I forgot cause I deleted it off =D

14. Where is your letterbox?
Voideck

15. What is the word you say alot?
OH MY GOSH.

16. Who told you he/she love you last?
I don't think I wanna tell >.<

17. Last furry thing you've touced?
My tomato soft toy Hanya bought for me! =D

18. Favourite age you've been so far?
Whatever age that is less than 5 years old, all I like =)

19. Your worst enemy.
ANTS AND COCKROACHES.

20. What is your current desktop picture?
Black background with the word "Mango" in yellow colour and a smiley face that is pink in colour! =D And the artist, ME! =D

21. What was the last thing you said to someone?
Abnormal =D

22. If you had to chose between a million bucks and the ability to fly.
I would chose...the ability to fly =)

23. Do you like someone?
I like everyone! =D

24. The last song you listened to?
A soundtrack of "Save The Last Dace For Me" !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

25. If the last person you communicate with was getting shot at, would you jump infront of the bullet to save him/her from that shot but sacrifice your life instead?
Hmm...Nope. But I would use a gun and shoot the person who tried to shoot her before he/she manages to shot her! =D I think I can be CID leh.

26. If you could punch one person in the face, who would that be?
Me.

27. What is the closest object to your left foot?
The cupboard.

28. Last but not least, are you happy?
Nope.

WAHHHH. FINALLY. Okay. I'm hungry and I wanna eat =) BYE BYE.

2006-09-03T19:39:00.000-07:00

Have you ever tried to show concern but instead being told that you sounded fake?
Have you ever tried to let that person know you are there for him/her but instead being told that you sounded fake?
Have you ever tried to make that person happy but instead being told that you sounded fake?

Well, I have.

And yeah, I'm dissapointed.

Are You taking me for granted or what? I really wanna know.

I'm dissapointed. To think that such words would be said by You.

Of all people. You.

I'm speechless.

And just to let You know, I'm hurt. This time, seriously hurt.

Now, I can only stare back and look;

How You and I used to be.

Oh, how I wish I have a time machine so I could go back and lock myself in that time and never come back again.

The time when You and I used to be such good friends

The time when You and I used to share everything without hesitation

If I didn't know You, things wouldn't turn out this way. But then again, I wouldn't know that such a great friend like You, existed.

If I didn't know You, I wouldn't feel horrible. But then again, I wouldn't know that wonderful feeling I felt when a friend like You shows such concern for me.

I made a decision. A decision thats hard to make but may be the best solution for us. Before that, I just wanna let You know that You are the bestest friend anyone could ever have. I wish You all the best and may God bless You.

Goodbye.

Who are you? I don't remember.

2006-09-03T18:47:00.000-07:00

WEEKENDS WERE GRRREEEAAATTT!!!!!!!! =D Stayed at home all day on Saturday to watch my favourite, beloved, much loved Korean drama, and its the only drama I am so crazy over till I watched 8 discs in a row which lasted 1 and 1/2 hour per disc. Woah. I think that sentence is long. Okay. I think 'Save the Last Dance For Me' is SUUUUUUUPPPPPPPPPPPPEEEEEEEEERRRRRRRRRRR UUUUUUUUUULLLLLLLLLTTTTTTTTTRRRRRRRAAAAAAAAA NICE TO WATCH. I THINK I'M GONNA WATCH IT OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN TILL I MEMORISE THE STORYLINE WORD FOR WORD, SCENE FOR SCENE, EXPRESSION FOR EXPRESSION. omgxzxzzxihownfx. On Sunday, I couldn't resist the temtation so I continued watching 3 more discs and now, I'm left with one more final episode. OH MY GOSH. IT'S GONNA BE SO NICE. I think I'm gonna watch it now. Bye bye.

LOL. This post is crazy. =D

Be strong. You know I'm here. You can do it, girl =)

2006-08-31T02:22:00.000-07:00

I shall let the pictures do the talking first. Pictures, please. *shows the pictures the way* =)

LEE LAO SHI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! NI SHI ZHUI HAO DE!!!! heh. I think she's funny =D

Me and hanyaaaaaaaaaa!!! =D

I think our classroom is the best lah huh. We love you, classroom!!!! =D

The wondeful memories this corridor brings back are unforgettable =)

6 Joy 05' ...

wo men zhi yi ban! =D

I think the teachers' day celebration today is the best of all in all the 6 years. Firstly, VERY VERY CUTE PEOPLE PERFORMED. (Where were the secondary 1 prefects' performaces? -____-) Secondly, I was sitting right right at the corner of the hall where the machine was and it was like our home cause we could stretch our legs and sit like nobody's business and lie down and talk and use our phone whenever we want! =D AND I THINK THE PERFORMANCE BY 4A1 ROCKS LIKE CRAZY =D the rest was not very nice but still watchable, besides one of them. Suffered while walking under the rain to Perry Primary School (THANKS ALOT EUNICE SEOW. HMPH >:( ) to meet Ms Ng Lai Mui and she still looks the same. DIDN'T CHANGE ONE SINGLE BIT. NOT EVEN HER CLOTHES COMBINATION AND SHOES EH =D AND SHE SAYS IM NICE AND SHE LIKES ME!!! WOOHOO!!!!!!! =D ate nuggetsssssssssssssss!!!! =P walked like crazy women under the drizzle all the way to Koven. BEST. Sat cab there and ran all the way to the staff room and be Santa Claus. Managed to give my teachers their presents! =) Went to Heartland Mall and then homed with Sarah Chang =D

Oh crap. I'm having a really bad headache right now and I am FREEZING COLD and VERY WARM at the same time.

I think I'm getting sick. Double crap.

Patch things up huh...yeah sure. But how?

2006-08-30T04:50:00.000-07:00

I am so tired.
Tired of all the mixed emotions I have.
Tired of the situation I'm in now.
Tired of smiling when I'm not happy. At all.
Tired of pretending.
Tired of having so much to say but having so little time.
Tired of my life.
Tired of everything.
Tired of...myself.

What can I do?

Where were You when I needed You most?

2006-08-30T04:23:00.000-07:00

Horrible day today. Spilled the cup of water THREE times and water was ALL OVER my table. The weather was SUPER warm today. The class was SUPER noisy. I was SUPER irritated. But the smell of roses makes me feel glad once again =) Had a great time laughing all my troubles away with Joyce Teo Min Jia. Gosh, she is SUPER nice to laugh with eh =D JOYCE TEO!! I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =D Waited for 2hrs 15min for the stupid photo-taking. I thought we were late and we ran like crazy. In the end, we still had to wait for 30min before we could even take 2 photos. WASTE MY TIME >:( Gonna go back to primary school tomorrow to pass my teachers PRESENTS!!!! =D I really miss the life I had when I was primary 1 and 2....free from troubles and worries. Life was so great then. Oh well, the past is the past =) AND I THINK 1B2 06' ROCKS MY SOCKS, SHOES, HAIR AND BEARS I TELL YOU. I DON'T WANT US TO SEPERATE NEXT YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =(

I'm hurting so badly inside. I need someone to be here. I wanna cry. Cry all my troubles away. Cry till everything is back to normal. But, can I?

2006-08-24T02:12:00.000-07:00

Physical today was H-O-R-R-I-B-L-E. We were late. So we had to do 50 pumpings, 12 suicides, running up and down twice and 30 of some kind of squating-and-then-stand-up-again-but-you have-to-hold-hands thing. It may sound little...BUT IT'S DAMN TIRING PLEASE. Sweated like some crazy animal. I really pity the netballers =( The blister on my thumb is getting worser and worser. Crap. Its my first time getting one so I didn't know how pain it is >:( humph. I don't like guzheng laaaaaaaaaa...I have a feeling my group's gonna screw up for tomorrow's play cause we only practised once. And it was not even done properly. SHIT. I can see my marks being flushed down the toilet bowl >:(

I am very smelly so I'm gonna bathe now. BYE BYE =D

Orange and yellow =)

2006-08-22T00:57:00.000-07:00

My mission failed cause Nemo got eaten by my partner before I even manage to pluck its fins out =D

Tears are salty water coming out from the eye glands. Why isn't it bitter? Sometimes, I really wonder.

So much to say, So little time

My cookies are delicious >.<

I think yellow coloured paper rocks my socks and shoes and hair and bears.

Yes. It's You.

I HAVEN'T RECEIVE MY MATHS PAPER. Gan chiong feeling haven't over. Shit.

People who are failing are not crying. People who are passing with flying colours are crying. And the reason is not because they are too happy. It's because they are dissapointed. Seriously, what is wrong with this world?

THIS POST SO RANDOM LEHHHHH =D

2006-08-21T01:30:00.000-07:00


	Your super-secret codename is: LAC HER
	Your mission is... Find Nemo and kill him

'What" is your codename and mission?' at QuizGalaxy.com

HAHAHAHHAHAAHHAHAHAHA. I'M GONNA HAVE TO KILL NEMO. HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA. under the sea...under the sea! =D

2006-08-18T01:18:00.000-07:00

No one today can avoid asking this question; What is the meaning of life?

We look for it everywhere: In books, in sports, in love, in drugs, and in fame and fortune. We compare ourselves to others and find it doesn't matter how high we climb among our peers. We collect material assets and always want more. We may even climb spiritual ladders without finding the answer, because we are asking the wrong question.

It's not a question of what life means to US; it's all about what WE mean to God.

King Solomon, who was granted unsurpassed wisdom by God, lamented after years of experimentation: "I have seen all the things that are done under the sun; all of them are meaningless, a chasing after the wind" (Ecclesiastes 1:14).

Solomon concludes, in Ecclesiastes 12:13, "Now all has been heard; here is the conclusion of the matter: Fear God and keep his commandments, for this is the whole duty of man."

The Bible tells us that all of creation revolves around God's will. He created the heavens and the earth and He created each of us. We reside in a universe that to us seems bounded by time and space, but which to God is totally accessible. All of the Bible either lays the groundwork for our worship of God and our salvation through Jesus Christ or details how we are to respond to Christ's sacrifice on the cross.

So the meaning of life becomes: How do we get in that game?

For the unbeliever, it can start with a simple, honest prayer: "God, if you are there, please help me. I don't know what to believe. I'm not happy with my life and the things I've achieved. Please help me have the faith to start walking with you."

God, in His faithfulness, will use even this tiny overture to begin working in our lives.

Jesus himself said in Matthew 17:20, "…I tell you the truth, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, "Move from here to there' and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.'" Once we have decided to pursue God, there are many tools that will help us. We may read and interpret His word in Scripture. We may pray for His continued guidance. We may try to do His work in our daily lives.

As we lift up our circumstances - good and bad - to God in prayer, we will find things improving. Some problems God will simply take away from us - anxieties about things we cannot control, desires for things we should not want (addictions) are good examples. Some things God will send back for us to work on - broken relationships where we are partly at fault, missions God has given us that we have tried to ignore. Some things God will fix - healing sickness, removing evil influences from our lives, redirecting us away from situations we thought we would never resolve.

The more we listen to God, the better we will know His voice. We can get plenty of practice by reading scripture and paying special attention to those passages we don't understand - or don't like. These passages offer huge signposts to the areas of our lives that are not in accordance with God's will.

Sooner or later, we will be moved by Scripture and prayer to give our lives to Jesus, who died to redeem us from our sins and to allow us to approach God clothed in Christ's righteousness. With our acceptance of Jesus, we also receive the Holy Spirit, which will gradually help us become more like Christ.

During this lifelong process of sanctification, we find our sins gradually being replaced by what the Apostle Paul calls the "fruit of the spirit."

"But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law" (Galatians 5:22-23). Equipped with these gifts, we are ready to pursue the purpose God has planned for us since before we were born. This purpose will be different for each person, but will result in two common goals: Glorifying God the creator and helping to build His kingdom on earth.

What more could we ask for the meaning of life?

I think this is so wonderful =)

2006-08-18T00:57:00.000-07:00

COMMON TESTS ARE OOOOOOOOOOOVVVVVVVVVVVEEEEEEERRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!! and now I have to start preparing for the marks I'm gonna get. shit. bad feeling comes and go. and then it comes again. CRAP. received geog and I was so pissed with myself that i teared. WHAT THE HELL PLEASE!!!! 7 MARKS!!! I COULD HAVE GOTTEN 7 MARKS MORE LEHHHH!!!!! JUST BECAUSE OF SOME STUPID CARELESS MISTAKES AND JUST BECAUSE OF MY BAD MEMORY, I. LOST. 7. MARKS. #$%^&*%$@#!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! but someone wonderful cheered me up. LOADS =D you know who you are =) I WANNA THANK YOU A MILLION TIMES FOR ALWAYS MAKING MY DAYS FEEL BETTER!!!! =D received my history too. B-A-D. I DEPROVED WHEN I WAS SUPPOSED TO IMPROVE. SHIT. then, received my chinese paper, AND I WANNA JUMP FOR JOY, HAPPINESS, PROSPERITY AND PROGRESS. (okay. it doesn't really link, but, heck.) I'VE GOT THE MARKS I WANTED TO GET!!!!!! =D in fact, everyone got what they've wanted. well, maybe not everyone, but those around me. LETS ALL PRAISE THE LORD!!!!!!!!!!!! =D

2006-08-15T01:26:00.000-07:00

PLANET SHAKERS ROCKS LIKE SOME CRAZY PIECE OF CLOUD THAT I WOULD WHINE FOR 297219749274846483629 YEARS IF I DIDN'T GO =D gosh. It was really meaningful =) and i enjoyed every, single minute of it. IT'S WORTH BETTER THAN SOP. and the ticket is only $4!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yes yes. IT'S GREAT. met sharmaine and my cousin and his friends at orange julius cause SOMEONE asked me to meet her there so she could pass me the tickets and we waited for DAMN LONG and that SOMEONE said she DIDN'T KNOW WHERE ORANGE JULIUS IS. OMGJKHDUIWEBDJKWBDKBXKBEK. Everyone almost died on the spot. so we walk like we were late for some kind of meeting all the way to Hall 10
-___- went in, and the place was NICE =) used white chalk or crayon or something to draw on my arms and face. SHARMAINE, YOUR WRITING FAIL LA. write on my hand until like what like that -___- okay. was right in the front and IT WAS VERY, VERY, VERY FUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! the songs they sang were great =) after the concert went out and then i realised i forgot to buy the cd. okay. so we walked all the way back and then met the rest of my cousins and then went together to queue for the cd. went back to my cousin's house for a gathering and then went home =D shall upload the photos some other time =) okay, got back my history today and i was doing okay till i found out that my group failed for the project cause we handed one week late. BECAUSE THE PROJECT WAS KEPT UNDER SOMEONE'S TABLE SINCE ALOT OF WEEKS AGO AND NO ONE BOTHERED TO HAND IT IN. so I dropped 2 grades. WHEN I WAS SUPPOSED TO DO EXTREMELY WELL FOR THIS TERM.

shit.

2006-08-07T20:29:00.000-07:00

GOSH. SOMEONE JUST ADDED ME ON MSN AND HE IS A 33 YEARS OLD MALE?! OMGKQDHWUIHNDJKWQK. and I thought he was my cousin -___- shit. what if...that guy's a pervert?! what if...that guy's a crazy man?! what if...that guy's a cheater?! okay. i think its better that I delete him off my contacts and block him as well. safe now. no more 'what if's =D

Shall blog about the SOP on Saturday:

THE PLACE IS SO VERY, NICE. I bought a $50 ticket and in the end my cousin, who bought a $25 ticket, sat right infront, and me and sharm was all the way at the last row -___- CHEAT MY MONEY!!!!!!!! >:( the opening was SO BORING. the cello player looks like she was giving birth?! yes, sharmaine said that. but seriously, she looks more like she took estacy. SHE WAS VIBRATING AND SHAKING. okay. the harp was absolutely EXCELLENT!!! =D enjoyed every second of it. the choir was abit out...cause they were making me feel even more colder than I was already am. so, boo. BAND'S NEXT. SHARON WAS IN THE CENTRE AND I COULD SEE HER SO CLEARLY!! she looked reluctant to play though =( saw half of Rachel's head and I couldn't spot melanie =D melanie ah, next time you should stand right at the top of the riser so I can spot you la huh. I regretted not buying flowers for the girls =( okay. guzheng was okay. very loud and magestic =) the ending was nice and we did the PL cheer!!! it was already 10.30pm when the concert ended. my cousins and I went back to the gathering =) the end! oh, and I wanna suggest that the Singapore Concert Hall's toilet doors should be change cause it's making HELL LOT of noise whenever you open or close the door.

Wanted to blog about today's Natinal Day Parade in school but now I think I should not cause there is nothing much to blog about.

So, bye bye =D

2006-08-07T00:48:00.000-07:00

Then, I heard those 2 piercing words, "Let go".

What have I done? Oh, Father God, why do I have to let him go?

This hurts so bad.

I cried, I spent days and I've made the decision.

To you;

God has been telling me something. He's been telling me to let you go. I don't want to, but I have to obey Him. May the Lord bless you and keep you. May the Lord make His face to shine upon you and give you His peace. And may you always love Jesus more than anything else.

"You should never have any regrets with him. You loved him. Face it, you always will. Now go on with your life. God is near to the brokenhearted."

Yes, these words helped me moved on.

I just so happen think that being near God is a wonderfully safe place to be.

2006-08-04T01:27:00.000-07:00

In a soap bubble, lightly floating towards infinity. This is where I would like to be, so I wouldn't be bound to hear a thing.

To lose myself into oblivion and to avoid regretting a fading past that, with all my being, I'd like to be my present and future. It would almost be funny if it didn't hurt so much, don't you think?

I miss you and I cannot tell you. Worse of all, I cannot tell myself.

Why shouldn't I feel these emotions? Solitude makes me feel a deaf pain that not even the things in my past can sooth.

And whenever other feelings arise, like range, I cannot find peace and I ask myself why us, why this way, why never again.

If only I could convince myself that I was reasonable. If only I could silence the doubts that crowd my mind. If only, for one more time, I could hear you say those words...

2006-08-04T01:04:00.000-07:00

My right arm is aching so horribly cause of I-don't-know-what reason. I think the lead in my hand is causing it. MUST BE. SHARON, SEE LA. THROW LA THROW LA. SEE WHAT HAPPEN. I think I should stop blogging now. okay. so, bye bye =D

Note to self: Buy Mr Kim mints for teacher's day.

2006-08-01T01:18:00.000-07:00

No, nothing will happen now but all these would not have happened before if you've learnt to let go of the past earlier. You didn't tell me you didn't know what was going on. I thought I was the one who was supposed to be the one not knowing? I don't know. It's just plain confusing.

So, you are suspecting somebody has been spreading? Well, that doesn't really matter I guess cause this is between you and me. They wanna know about it, let them know for all I care cause its none of my business.

You and me said we didn't wanna care. You and me said we've had enough. If this is so, what more can I say? In fact, you were the one who said we should be like this if its better for us this way. You tell me what else I can say besides 'Its over". I really wanna know.

2006-08-01T00:51:00.000-07:00

Today kinda sucked. No. Not kinda. It did sucked. Early morning got scolded cause i had to go school early for physical. and then it reminded my dad about my cca, and then reminded him about me staying back till so late and then reminded him that I have no time to study cause tests are coming up. BEST. so, he PURPOSELY went to the route to my school, and i thought he was gonna fetch me first. but instead he went to my sister's school and then back again. Guess what he said? I PURPOSELY WANNA MAKE YOU REACH SCHOOL AT 7.15 and heck, I did reach school at 7.15. I THINK HE IS PURE EVIL. I SO HATE HIM. YES, I HATE HIM SO MUCH SO THAT I'D RATHER DIE THAN TO SEE HIS FACE. I was filled with hatred when i was in the car man. I was crying inside but tears just didn't drop till I reached 1b2. I was hurting so badly let me tell you. My own father? Purposely drive to a route which he knows that I know very well that leads to my school but instead made another round just because he wanted me to give physical a miss? WHAT THE HELL. He doesn't understand how I feel. But thanks to my dear friends, I managed to stop myself from flooding my classroom =) Thank you Sharon, you were oh, so sweet!!! Thank you Nadine, you were great!!! I LOVE YOU TWO!! =D and gosh, SHARON LOOKS SO, SO, SO, SO CUTE IN BAND UNIFORM!!!!!! she looks like a japanese schoolgirl leh. so cute!!!! =D okay. I just made my own omellete!!! Say 10 cheers cause my cooking is very good, considering that I don't even know how to cook maggie mee.

Shit. I have a feeling he told mrs han that I'm gonna quit =(( HELL NO. I'M NOT GONNA QUIT MAN. NO WAY. I'm gonna quarrel with him till he agrees to let me stay.

Till then, I'm not talking to him.

2006-07-28T01:21:00.000-07:00

Yes. We've never understood each other. Well, don't be sorry cause its not your fault that you don't understand. You know what? It hurts real bad to know that a close friend like you don't even know how to trust me. I don't know what I did that cause us to be like this. Now, everyone is starting to realise what's happening to you and me. They ask me why, and I can't answer them cause I myself don't even know what exactly went wrong. Yes I admit I lied to you a couple of times. For that, I'm sorry. But its all over. Why don't you learn how to let go of the past? I hope you will not let our personal matter affect our group work. Whatever it is, there is one thing I wanna let you know and that is, I've never regretted having such a friend like you. I wish you all the best in everything you do. Goodbye.

I thought I knew you when I actually didn't.

It's over.

2006-07-28T00:56:00.000-07:00

I slept during maths. yes. ms chew gave us 10min to sleep and the minute i put my head down, I FELL ASLEEP. gosh. i was very, very, ULTRA SLEEPY. okay. everything went fine. and i got the sports colours award!! yay =D was spending literature period with this one girl cause mrs ramesh isn't here. yes. and we were happily listening to music and talking at first but i said something wrong and now she's not happy. >:( crap. I hate myself.

I'm sorry. I shouldn't even have said that. It spoiled your day and now, it's spoiling my day. I didn't know if what I said is true now, but I know it was some time ago. Please don't be upset. I've regretted telling you that. I'm sorry.

2006-07-26T01:09:00.000-07:00

MARSHMALLOWS MAKES MY DAY =D okay. end of post. have a nice day. bye bye.

yay. ends with the colour yellow =D

Dear Lord Jesus, I pray that you will be with Sharon and may you heal her with your healing hands so that she will be well enough to come to school tomorrow! In Jesus most precious name, Amen.

=D

Jealousy. Sucks big time.

2006-07-25T00:27:00.000-07:00

It was super early when i reached school today cause i didn't want to be late for physical. yes. first time. then, i went up to class and i realised that I FORGOT TO DO MY SCIENCE WORKSHEET AND THE IT IS VERY IRRITAING CAUSE IT KEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEPS OOOOOOOOOOONNNNNN ASKING THE SAME QUESTION OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN. so i did it and when i finished, i looked at my watch, I WAS LATE FOR PHYSICAL. and the purpose of having to go for physical today cause i was late last week. and today i'm still late. ha. ha. GILLIAN, I'M GONNA SNAP YOUR RUBBERBAND ON THURSDAY. snip, snip, piak! piak! ahhhhhh!!!!!!!!! =D

You don't trust me? Fine, whatever. I don't really care now. I've had enough. You don't understand why I'm doing this so please don't think I'm lying to you or anything. I've been tolerating you for quite some time over this matter. I don't care what she did to you cause that's already the past. People do make mistakes. I hope you understand.

2006-07-21T00:52:00.000-07:00

With encouragements from my beloved friends, THE RACHEL IS BACK!!!!!! =D yes yes. and i just found out something really, really bad...I CAN'T TOUCH STATIONARIES. cause everytime i touch, i will hurt myself. and its ALWAYS my RIGHT hand. ALWAYS. i had one on my middle finger because my scissors kiaped it, another one on the back of my hand caused my Sharon Lam, one on my nose cause i hit the cubboard and finally, another one on my thumb caused by the scissors again. ZHIYING LA. she said my scissors very sharp then it cut her finger. then i didn't believe her, so i tried, i pressed my finger on the blade, and slide across. yes. i know all of you out there are worrying for me x) no worries!! its okay now though i still can see the flesh of my thumb.

today was okay. had physical in the morning. a VERY BIG bee flew across my face, 2cm away from my nose. my partner complains that she wanted to shit so I followed her. Went back to class and had lessons. History was boring...as usual. Had recess, went back to class for chinese. Even more boring, as usual. But played 'Bingo!' to past time with my partner. Had IT lessons after that. Played hangman with quek. Started to think of some stuff. Was very distracted. Sharon could see it, as usual. (=D) Just found out her way of making me smile is by tugging my sleeves. Managed to smile a little though. Went back up to class and had maths. Almost fell asleep, as usual. After maths was lunch. Reluctant to fly to the canteen early cause I knew sharon would write a note to me, as usual (xD) Sure enough, she passed the note to me. Flew downstairs to meet Poon Zhiying. Ate a little, went back to class. Had Lit after that. Was clueless about what we were supposed to do. I realise one very important thing that would affect my future. MY VOCAB IS H-O-R-R-I-B-L-E. Went home with Melanie. Here I am, using my finger energy to type. To conserve energy, I've decided to stop.

I love how I blog today. =D

But before I leave, I have something to say;

On behalf of my germs, (ew. it sounds sick.) I want to say a very big sorry to Sharon. Sharon ah Sharon....take extra care laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...I told you if you are sick you would get it from me right. But I thought it will never happen. See la. Now like that. Now still not too bad...if it becomes worser and worserrrrrrrr....YOU WILL DEFINITELY GET IT. =D

2006-07-19T00:25:00.000-07:00

I'm tired. Really tired. I am sick of what's happening. I just wanna drop, faint, and dissapear from the world. Friends around me are quarraling. I hate it. Friends around me are crying. I hate it. I don't wanna do this anymore...I'm done with everything. I don't wanna care anymore. I'm gonna study and do nothing else. Yes. This is it.

2006-07-18T00:42:00.000-07:00

It's hard for me to be there for you cause you don't even wanna tell me what you feel about things...you may not want to tell me cause you are afraid I would tell anyone about what you said...No. please don't think that way. Whatever she told you, I don't really care about that now cause I think she is doing something very wrong and you don't even realise it. You've been her friend for quite long...and yet you can't even see what kind of person she is? I am dissapointed. I wanted to tell you...but I knew you wouldn't believe me cause I only knew you for less than a year and her? definitely much more than this. Well, as time passes, I really hope you would realise. Don't get angry when you read this, cause I'm helping you. I don't want you to get hurt when she does the same thing to you. She already did it to me. And it hurts real bad to think that she was all along the person who actually caused those things to happen. But I'm really hoping what I know about what she had done is wrong...Good luck.

2006-07-18T00:30:00.000-07:00

the pencil mark still haven go away!!! crap. I have a feeling the lead is stuck in there -.-" some kinda misunderstanding happened in class today. I shan't elaborate =) almost got caught for throwing notes my MRS KUMA. oh gosh. she was VERY scary. and luckily sharon said she threw geog notes =D great answer sharon!! hahahhahaa..almost fainted due to the heat that is caused by the big, hot, orange ball. yes. the sun. I can't wait for the concert cause I will be able to see sharon lam and rachel tan perform. heh =D well, this is a very random post cause there is nothing for me to blog about today. (yes sharon, I KNOW THE MEANING OF RANDOM ALREADY.) okay. i'm gonna bounce to the toilet to bathe now, so bye bye.

it was all a big, big misunderstanding.

2006-07-17T00:55:00.000-07:00

Story of my life

Searching for the right

But it keeps avoiding me

Sorrow in my soul

Cause it seems that wrong

Really loves my company

He's more than a man

And this is more than love

The reason that the sky is blue

But clouds are rolling in

Because I'm gone again

And to him I just can't be true

And I know that he knows I'm unfaithful

And it kills him inside

To know that I am happy with some other guy

I can see him dyingI don't wanna do this anymore

I don't wanna be the reason why

Everytime I walk out the doorI see him die a little more inside

I don't wanna hurt him anymore

I don't wanna take away his life

I don't wanna be...A murderer

I feel it in the air

As I'm doing my hair

Preparing for another date

A kiss upon my cheek

As he reluctantly

Asks if I'm gonna be out late

I say I won't be long

Just hanging with the girls

A lie I didn't have to tell

Because we both know

Where I'm about to go

And we know it very well

Cause I know that he knows I'm unfaithful

And it kills him inside

To know that I am happy with some other guy

I can see him dying

I don't wanna do this anymore

I don't wanna be the reason why

Everytime I walk out the door

I see him die a little more inside

I don't wanna hurt him anymore

I don't wanna take away his life

I don't wanna be...A murderer

Our love, his trust

I might as well take a gun and put it to his head

Get it over with

I don't wanna do this

Anymore...

I don't wanna do this anymore

I don't wanna be the reason why

And everytime I walk out the doorI see him die a little more inside

And I don't wanna hurt him anymore

I don't wanna take away his life

I don't wanna be...A murderer.

2006-07-17T00:39:00.000-07:00

Today's VERY short and a VERY funny and a VERY sugar-high day and guess what i found out? ZHIYING FINDS IT ITCHY WHEN PEOPLE TOUCHES HER. ESPECIALLY WHEN SHE SITS DOWN. so everyone, if you are curious, you can go and try =) I am very sure you will enjoy it ALOT. hahahaahahahahah. its pretty funny when you see her go all squiggly!! =D and sharon's aiming is very good leh. she wanted to throw the pencil onto my partner's table and in the end wanna know hit where? HIT MY HAND AND IT CAUSE MY HAND TO HAVE A HOLE. yes. a hole. but suprisingly, there is no blood flowing out =D until now, there is still a pencil mark. I don't know if the lead went in or something cause i washed so hard but the mark is still there =( what if the lead goes into my bloodstream, and then to my heart, and then i die how????? OH MY GOSH. SERIOUS CASE LEH. if so, sharrrrrrooooonnnn, you are gonna be so dead xP but she said sorry alot of times, so i guess she will be forgiven =)) oh and i think Rihanna's 'Unfaithful' is very nice! =D

Let me be the one,
Telling you it's alright...
Sharing the smiles and tears you cry.
For all of the strength you need,
You can come to me.
Let me be the one.

Yes I cried.

2006-07-14T00:22:00.000-07:00

I am sorry. I AM SORRY OKAY?! you are sick of this? I think i am sick of this too. I've had enough. All I wanted to do was just to make you smile...once. Once and it turned out like that. But why did it have to turn out this way? I was just joking about not talking to you because I thought that you would smile and try to make me not angry like you used to...but I guess you misunderstood me. I'm sorry.

I don't want this to continue. Really. Everyday I've been laughing, I've been smiling...I'm tired. I'm tired of trying to be happy when I am not. I'm sick of this life. I've always wanted to be the girl that I used to be...happy and free from troubles everyday. Look what I've become now. Crying every night and trying to smile in school when I am actually crying and screaming inside. But somehow, someone made me realise that I have to learn to be strong. And that someone is you. I wanted to be there whenever you feel troubled. But I'm scared you see. I'm scared you would feel even worse. You are different from the rest. I don't know...you are just well, different. Different in a special way.

If you are talking to me in your blog, then I'm sorry...I'm sorry I wasn't there for you. I'm sorry if I didn't know why you were not okay. I'm sorry if I couldn't see the truth. I'm just, well, dumb enough not to realise that okay? I'm sorry. I know you are feeling terrible. I am too.

Can we be like the previous times again? Playing 'bang!' and laughing and being crazy all day? I want this to stop. Please?

2006-07-13T04:07:00.000-07:00

I HAD A TERRIBLE, TERRIBLE EXPERIANCE DURING TRAINING TODAY. ABSOLUTELY HORRIBLE >:( I think I can say this is the worst training of all so far during these 5 years. My lessons ended at 2.20pm. I didn't have lunch so which means I will have lunch before I go for training otherwise we all will faint from hunger right. we didn't have a proper lunch also la. we just bought sushi and Old Chang Kee and went off to take bus already lor. then we reached primary school at 3.35pm. so when we stepped in mr kim told us to each take a paper, not to talk among ourselves, answer the questions on the board and stand away from each other. The first question was what time we ended our lessons. 2.20pm. The second one, what was the possible time we were able to reach there. 3.15pm. Third one, what time did we reach. 3.35pm. The last one we were supposed to write in DETAILS on what we did or what happen during that period of time from our school to primary school. WHAT THE HELL. yes we were late and we are sorry, but we were not late because of fun, we were late because we had to eat lunch before we even have to look at your face and pay FULL attention to you right. at least thats a valid reason lor. and guess what he said? WE COULD HAVE SKIPPED LUNCH AND GO THERE STRAIGHT. this is torture or torture you tell me. please eh. walao! I was seriously very, VERY pissed off with what he said just now >:( we cannot talk during the WHOLE of training eh. if he catches us, we are out of the room -.-" and he wants those who were late, which including me, to be fired in public as in the whole school. WALAO. he everything also wanna complain to the principle, vice principle or miss gan leh. EVERYHTING LEH. I am so tired now, AND TOMORROW GOT PHYSICAL. SHIT.

Girl, what's wrong with you? You are not yourself lately...Everyone noticed that...I know its regarding your family and all...Yes, its hard not to be like that. But you can talk to one of us...we are here for you. Cheer up alright? I want you to be your cute, crazy, blur self again. I miss that you. I am getting really worried for you...I guess everyone is too...please, promise me that you will be your old self again. Okay? Oh, and you owe me a hundred smiles =)

2006-07-12T02:04:00.000-07:00

Sharon Lam Hui Min wants me to post but I don't know what to post about today cause there is nothing much for me worth posting about today. Anyway, I will try. So, here it goes...

Good Afternoon everyone, have you had a nice day? Oh yes I have had a nice day. I hope you do too. What did all of you do in school today? Well, incase you ask, I studied and I injured my finger during art, and I made fruit cake during home econs and its very yummy. If you want to try it, too bad. Cause its all gone. And did I have fun while making the cake? Yes I did. What about my finger huh? Yes. It bleed. But its internal bleeding. I know it sounds painful cause IT WAS VERY PAINFUL. I know you all out there a crying your hearts out for me now. Aww, don't cry. Cause its just a small part of my finger that I injured. Don't need to cry over this small little thing. Its not nice. No, I did not cry cause its very small though IT WAS VERY PAIN. And because Sharon was there, and she kept asking me if I was okay and I said I was okay though I was screaming my lungs out inside. CAUSE IT WAS VERY VERY PAIN. But Sharon, don't get upset cause I lied to you. I didn't want you to keep thinking I was not okay thats why I did that. I hope you are not angry. But I think you will not be angry. Anyway, nothing much after that incident cause I was thinking about...Yes. About him again. I was reflecting about what was said during chapel this morning. Though the thinking didn't have alot to do with the topic talked about, but still, I thought about it. Okay, its starting to make my eyes sting cause I am thinking about what I thought about just now and the song playing now makes my eyes sting. Hope you've enjoyed reading this. May all of you have a nice day though more than half of it is gone. see you soon. Bye bye.

HEH =D There you go, Sharon Lam. =D

2006-07-11T01:36:00.000-07:00

Saw a doctor and I have to eat HELLLOT of mdeicines. i was happy at first cause the pills were very, very small. but when I took it for the first time, once you put the medicine in your mouth, THE TASTE JUST OVERFLOW AND IT MAKES YOU WANNA THROW UP. best. make me happy for nothing. best eh. humph. i wanted to thank the doctor a million times, but now, I am having second thoughts. >:( Had Lit talk yesterday and Sharon was OH, SO sweet =) we were in the e-hall and the aircon was on and it was freezing cold. she saw me rubbing my legs and she asked me: "You cold ah?" and i was like nodding my head..and guess what she did after 10sec? she opened her Lit textbook and cover my hands so that i will be warm eh...SO SWEET PLEASE! =))) and then she heard me sniffing, then she went asking around for tissue without me knowing and she handed me the tissue, and then i asked her what was it for and she said for my nose. MY GOSH. SO SWEET EH!!! =D I guess this is what i call a good friend =)) Thanks sharon! you are the BEST and I love you!! =D thanks for being there for me always. YOU GO GIRL!!! =D

Had health check today. it was...well, bad in a good way. had good results but bad experiance. don't ask why. AND MY NOSE IS ALL RED NOW CAUSE I KNOCKED MYSELF ON THE CUPBOARD YESTERDAY NIGHT. yes. everyone, laugh. I know laaaaaaaa...very funny laaaaaa..I very dumb laaaaaaaa...humph. pain LOR. =( sharmaine didn't come today. so no crappying. I miss you sharmaine!!!! please be back tomorrow. I wanna see you sitting there with your face all sweaty early in the morning after your physical =D I guess thats all i have to say. have a nice day and bye.

One more last sentence: Sharon is cute, plays the guitar well, melts people with her voice and is very, very caring =D

2006-07-06T23:49:00.000-07:00

MY COUGH AND FLU IS KILLING ME. AND I AM GONNA USE UP ALL OF THE KLEENEX -ES IN MY HOUSE.

2006-07-06T22:30:00.000-07:00

Yesterday's morning sky was GREY. totally GREY i tell you. shall not blog about yesterday's rubbish cause all i did was laugh with my laughing partner, poon zhiying =D and today...well, i slept during chinese lesson. really slept. THE TEACHER WAS BORING LIKE CRAZY. i think i will slowly die from it if the time table dont change soon. crap. but IT lessons made my day =)) mr quek didn't come!!! hooray, so we played around with the computers. yes. and the day just end with chew's lesson. The end. bye bye. Have a nice day.

Girl, you've gotta be strong. Cry if you have to...We're here for you. Promise me, alright?

Life's precious...really precious...I just made a list of those whom I love, and guess what? Someone who someone loves deeply is gone..forever..
Gosh..I don't know what to do or say...cause its really..well, I don't know...sad..yeah... I don't know how would I handle this if it was me...I don't know what will happen to myself if it was me..I don't know what will happen to my life after everything is setteled...oh gosh...I'm so uncertain about how long each of us will live...It's scary..very scary..I'm scared, i'm scared the same thing happens to me..I know it will one day..but, i just pray, pray that God will give me the courage to face reality when the time comes...

I think I wanna add more people to my list. Many many more. If I can even remember every single one though...=D

2006-07-05T05:02:00.000-07:00

OH GOSH, I BETTER SAY ALL THE 'I LOVE YOU'S BEFORE ANYONE OR EVEN MYSELF DISSAPEAR. THIS IS THE LOVE DEDICATION BOARD. PEASE CHECK IF YOUR NAME IS THERE. IF IT'S NOT, PLEASE READ THE INFORMATION AT THE END OF THIS POST FOR MORE DETAILS. THANK YOU.

Sharon!!! I LOVE YOU!! though i said it to you already...but still, I LOVE YOU!! and I know you love me too cause you said so >.< Life's precious! Don't waste time and be depressed. I don't want to see eveyrone I love being depressed. A very unpleasant sight =((

Sharmaine!!! I LOVE YOU!! and you better love me too cause i know you do =)) thanks for being my toilet partner and my crappy partner!! =))

Elizabeth Tan!!! I LOVE YOU!! you may not say it, but deep in your heart, you are shouting the 3 words to me! i know that!! heh =D thanks for being the pink-panther-gun-turn-around-bang!-bang! partner! and also my Zap! Zap! partner!! =))

Seniors!!! I LOVE YOU!! All of you never fail to make trainings interesting and fun. though we are not THAT close, I STILL LOVE YOU!! =D

Zhiying!! i love you! i decided to put your 'I Love You' in small letters and reduce one exclaimation mark each because you are so unappreciative. boo. thanks for listening to my stories just now. and thanks for being my laughing partner. full stop. bye bye. (i know you are doing that face now lor...and i know deep inside, you love me too! =D ) *slap*

Stef!!! I LOVE YOU!!! you forever love me one..I know =)) so there is nothing much to say. except, thanks for being there for me!! =)) *smootch*

Joyce!!! I LOVE YOU!!! I love the way you win whenever there is a fight or quarrel! hahahaha =D thank you for making me laugh. AND DON'T DENY. I KNOW YOU LOVE ME TOO. ITS JUST THAT YOU TOO SHY TO SAY ONLY. =D

To the rest!!! I LOVE YOU!!! i know all of you love me too. see you guys around and be sure to say 'I Love You' to me when you see me horrrrrrr...or I will gauge your eyeballs out!! muhahahahahaahha!!! =D

That special you!!!!!! I LOVE YOU!!!! there are LOADS of things I wanna say and thank you for but i guess i will just summarise it all in one looooonnngggg sentence. Thanks for being there for me, thanks for giving me the courage that i needed, thanks for the love you've given me, thanks for the sweetness you've given me, and fianlly, THANKS FOR THE SWEET MEMORIES!! =)) *gives you a million kisses* hope your statellite recieved it. heh =D

Ahmahs and gong gongs!!!!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU!!!!!! Though one of you went away before I could even recognise the way you look, I wanna let you know that I love you =)) as for the rest, I wanna thank you all for taking care of me since I was young...I wanna thank you for bringing me to kindergarden everyday. I wanna thank you for taking care of me when i was sick. I wanna thank you for making the house danger-free for me when i was as small as I used to be...there are loads of things I wanna thank you all for...but i'm sure the list will go on forever..I wanna let you know that whatever happens to me or to you, I just wanna let all of you know that I love you...you will always be in my prayers =)) *A VERY VERY BIG HUG AND PLENTY OF KISSES*

Done. Anyone whom I've missed out, please tell me asap. I'm sorry if I've forgotten you cause now I am very gan chiong and I want to finish this as fast as I can. so, bye bye.

2006-07-05T04:40:00.000-07:00

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. my mum is shouting at my new maid cause she dosen't undertsand simple english like: Last night you cook that vegetables. hahaahhaahhaahahha..I was laughing to myself when I heard my mum shouting. My maid cooked marcoroni with CORN SOUP for dinner -.-" LOL...then my mum was angry at her. cause she told her many MANY times and all she can say is: Yes mum. and then laugh. hahahahahahahaha..my mother always ask her: You understand or not? then she will say: Yes mum or Yes, I understand mum. and she laughs. Nothing else. haahahahahahahah..super funny please!! and yesterday, my mum was on leave and she got so fed up with her la. haahahahahhaha..very VERY VERY funny!! cause my mum just told her don't put oyster sauce and after 5min, she walked out of the kitchen and ask my mother: Eh, mum? Need put sauce tilam? hahahahahahahhaa..i dont know what is sauce tilam but I guess its oyster sauce. and guess what my mother said? Haiya! I tell you so many times already you always Yes, mum Yes mum...You go cook anything you want la! I don't care you already la! Put the whole bottle also can la! HAHAHAAHAHAHHAAHHAAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I laughed like crazy please! LOL..and yesterday her porridge is stickyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy like don't know what leh...you take one spoonful, turn it upside down, have to wait for 30sec before everything comes off the spoon. hahahahaahhah!!! my mum is so fed up now that she keeps talking to herself. hahahhahaahaahahahahahaahahahaahahahhahahahahahha. and she takes 2min to open the door -.-" crap. my mummy is calling me to off the computer now. LOL. I guess she wants me to help her explain things to my maid =D

2006-07-05T02:19:00.000-07:00

"Imagine you didn't tell the people who died who much you love them, how much you cared for them deep inside and didn't show it. These 3 words ' I Love You' will mean so, so much. The regret of not saying it would be so hard to handle. We just take it for granted that everyone wouldn't die so soon."

I think this is so true. Well, I did do it a twice. I did say those 3 words. Once, it just turned out that I actually didn't love that person the way it was supposed to be. The other time, it became a joy of saying it and slowly, becoming a habit. But it ended so soon. Too soon...

2006-07-05T01:00:00.000-07:00

chapel session today was wonderful =)) "God didn't let things happen to us unless there is a purpose for it." i was thinking about it the whole day...did He let me and you end up like this because there was a purpose for it? if yes, what is it? why don't I know the purpose till now?

today's home econs kinda sucked >=( just because i dont know who oned the radio after bell rang, and then when teacher came in, she heard the music, which means the radio is on, which means, to her, that is rude -.-" whatever. she said we should look for her when she didn't appear in class after the bell ring. which means everytime the bell ring the next teacher have to pop in like that la. what rubbish eh. she may not have classes before this but other teachers also have right. and what do you expect us to do within 2min after the bell rings? run around the whole school looking for you and realise that you were actually on the way up to our classroom ah? please eh. so unreasonable. humph. spoiled my whole homecons-feeling for the whole of the home econs period la. we did almond cookies today. its not nice =( horrible. our dough so wet. crap. but the things turned out to be nicer then i expected to be =D AND CASSANDRA TSE KEEPS SAYING OURS VERY UGLY. VERY NICE LOR. YOU NEVER EVEN BAKE. HOW YOU KNOW YOURS WOULD TURN OUT SO NICE HUH?? humph. walked home with sharon and kelly. sharon so shy -.-" haahhahaahhaahhaha...when i left, she didnt there to talk to kelly. sharon ah sharon, why so shy??? =)) cute eh!!! I LOVE HER BELOW-NEAR-THE-NECK-HAIR. SO NICE TO PLUCK/PULL. heh =D

I guess I'm not brave enough to deal with the fact that you are gone yet...I have always wanted to ask you a question from the start...Have you really loved me the way you were supposed to? Let me tell you something; I have.